one shot-

2008-09-19T09:51:00.000+08:00

430.

&& I'm letting it go.

2008-09-13T09:37:00.001+08:00

I am in blood
Stepp'd in so far, that, should I wade no more,
Returning were as tedious as go o'er.

2008-09-10T22:25:00.002+08:00

I have an ulcer ):
I have dry lips now, thanks to lack of water (reminder: search for lip balm) ):
I have promos ): (haha, like whaaaatttt?! this is so irrelevant cause almost everyone has them, !)

I look forward to friday (: honestly, one of the people that I can be truly uncensored, unrestricted is with people like baohui, hoho- absolute love with no judgements, its a two way thing :D
I look forward to friday night (:
&& buka with melayuaries (:
(another group that is able to... -points abv, Imissyoualllikemaddd, hurry, finish promos and we can buka tog && talk rubbish && just, let things go..)

I always feel glad knowing that I still make the effort to hold on to those that matter (: and it's reciprocated! even if it's hard to, but well, it takes two to make friendships work, seriously. you cant lament over the sad state or the distance between you two if you're just closed off, shut up in your own world. am always reminding myself never to get too caught up in things. because that means forgetting those that make me who I am today, and I dont want that.

ahem, Imissmysquadlikecrazyyyydaisyyy! am looking forward to end-promos chalet with them! (:

you know what, haha, I really love my s63, haha, honestly- I think the antics of my friends never fail to amuse me, am never too tired to LOL @ the spasticity of the everyday life that I have being their friend, haha.

kaykay get back to studying, raaahhhh! all the way!

2008-09-05T20:37:00.002+08:00

1) my nephew is crazy with playing hide-and-seek!
2) my nephew knows colours now! like pink and blue.
3) I have started compiling a to-watch/to-read list of movies/books/shows i.e. Gossip Girls, Grey's Anatomy, watch the whole of Scrubs etc. am considering beverly hills?
4) one week of fasting gone!
5) must study econs! :\

foresee death during exams, seeing as lit clashes with econs. but I shall forge on and if need be, die with dignity. pfft.

2008-09-04T23:09:00.003+08:00

countdown begins;

3 days to school reopens
11 days to chem spa
13 days to GP paper
17 days to first promo paper
20 days to liberation
21 days to 2609
26 days to hari raya (!!!)

&& many other not-included stuffs i.e. sleepovers/buka puasa w melayuaries/chalets/whatnots

the holidays have been pretty good to me, I appreciated it, in all sense of the word (:

many thoughts richocheting off the mind, hence the lack of updates, simply cant construct them into proper sentences. feel pretty tired sometimes, but all's good when the family's around (: holidays have been super relaxing despite the studying clocked in. with the family making me laugh every 1 second, whats there to worry about? and talks with bestie are love, apparently its a vice versa thing, haha. definitely one of the persons I know who would stand by me all the way, albeit unable to physically because of our different schools. but again, all's good. so yes, I'm very glad for the short break because I am mentally rejuvenated.

with the holidays, I don't have that much labels stuck on me, which is pretty relieving. again, all's good. I dont use much of my handphone. repeat, all's good.

&& yes, I love my family. I'm really thankful for having such a close-knit one, with unconditional love/support/rubbish/entertainment. I'm happy that I have them, that I'm close to them, that I can count on them. that I dont feel restricted with them at all (: I mean, not many people can say that, truthfully to themselves when it comes to families. && therefore, I conclude that I'm rich.

tomorrow's worth looking-forward to (: right, right.
now all I need is a new unread book to curl up with to complete this satisfied feeling.

I'm starting to have the icantwaitforraya syndrome :D

&& to top it off, I 've found season6 online which is woooohh~ considering that they just premiered the first ep on 1st sept. so cheers :D all's good.

many reasons for all's good, and each and every one, whether expressed or not truly deserved the statement (: yep!

lastly, I'm thankful to God. for this.

2008-09-01T09:52:00.003+08:00

WE'VE DONE THE NIKE HUMAN RACE!
LOL-
amazing. great job to LF XY QA WI LH GT MS YY SK! :D
hee (: am pretty proud of ourselves && myself.
the girls took about 1h20mins, not bad la, considering we
havent really run in ages? and that its out first 10k! haha! yayy!!
the feeling @ the 8k point was :\ like, oh no, never-ending. haha!
but we pulled through && got our happy finisher's bracelet!
which is pretty nice actually (: yayyyy! hahaha!
here's to more 10ks!

2008-08-30T19:59:00.002+08:00

fasting starts in 2 days.
my one wish is to learn to be a better muslim.
&& hopefully, I dont just say, and not do.
ergh, hates it when my intentions go astray.

oh yes, I saw sam the chi go pek on friday as well!
it felt so good to see her, that when she shouted, 'chi go pek!'
to me, I just ran over to hug her, haha!
madness. she looks prettier now! :D ohmygosh,
my retarded tomboy bungish chigopek has turned pretty! LOL-
she's still as chapalang as ever, mygosh.

2008-08-29T20:21:00.002+08:00

I think decisions made with the heart are sometimes the best.
in all sense of the word.
:D
happy happy me-
with catchup (which I was rather reluctant to go to) but it turned out to be a wise choice cause I realised I really missed them. hearts to 4Ilovelies (:
&& the decision made. now, let's just wait, wait, wait! for the impending torture. (literally)

2008-08-19T19:19:00.004+08:00

chem lect test tomorrow.

may I not flunk it, and if I do, may I not flunk badly

econs test on thursday.
no comments.

nachos sale tomorrow!

may everyone buy them and be happy

and buy again on thurs/fri.

may we make a gooed profit.

may everything go as smoothly as possible.

haha, I actually understood buffer.

think I can study under pressure only.

touch rug during pe was fun! :D

LOL. see, the attendance was 5 girls and 5 guys.

how record-breaking.

but it still hasnt beaten the 3 girls record with all guys.

ran with caili :D I am happy, yayyyy.

this is so random but I miss 4I.

haha! I dont normally miss them but it struck me just now,

that actually, I do miss them. haha.

okay, may I be able to complete what I intend to do for today.

take a look at half of my sexy squad-

yay to ma'am chew!

it annoys me slightly that I have tons of free time but it has to be spent on studying, otherwise I'll die for promos. and I cant catch up with loved ones ):

2008-08-15T23:47:00.002+08:00

wow okay 418 entries on this blog so far.

today has been a good day despite it being a friday (a friday is synonymous with my friday nightmare jy, LOL) and that fridays are always intensively packed with merciless lectures and tutorials. and despite sleeping late last night, so yayyy I'm happy I feel so energised today. like I told jomel and jy, must sleep late on thursdays to feel good on fridays. though I'll face the sleep deprivation feel on friday night and sat.

and today's convos and topics were both interesting and thought-provoking, somewhat.

love pc lesson today. each time I end pc lesson, I feel as if my brain has been squeezed of all literary juices (or whatever that resembles them) and I feel so drained after all the intensed analysis. but I feel satisfied, haha. loves it.

I went out of school at 3.40pm today. record! && I intended to go odac room to deposit stuff but it was empty to my :O haha! && it's weird to see batchmates @ bus stop when its not 6 yet.

off to cedar to meet my hot, zai, sexy squadmates! :D

total strength: 28
actual strength: 12

it was great (: just slipping back into the familiar surroundings with familiar people and talking about everything && nothing && something that have to do with us, me, them, they, you. I truly enjoyed the time with you guys! (: oh and to see my hot CIs, woohooo~ I feel so proud of them (: !!! surprised ma'am chew with a birthday song and cake, yay ma'am chew! you're the icon of cedarnpcc! and then pictures with ma'am chew and sir tan.

us: eh, sir, come come! we take a picture with you la!
(this is after he took a pic for us with ma'am chew in it)
him: wah, finally.

I bet he misses our batch and all of our idiosyncrasies. okay I'm so sorry for having the reaction time of one year, but now, I think aries is a zai squad. seriously. && I'm glad those who could and want, came today (: ppmaced (as usual) with the rest :D and it was pure entertainment. we were chaotic/noisy and being aries. and thank god I'm not from cjc or I would have melted watching banu dancing/singing in macs :\ LOL. by the way, the new chilli sauce tastes lousy, I am appalled :\

somehow whenever I'm with squadmates, I feel younger, HAHAA. like I'm so old like that now. but yahhh. feels like nothing's ever changed just different clothes, different bagpacks. feels like slipping into a set of warm comfy pajamas on a rainy night, haha (: hearts to us, being gods of war. see, our fighting spirit totally shines through in all that we do!

today I felt disappointment four times. quite sad but hmm oh well. but nothing could take away the joy I felt tonight too. eh damn it's 1200 am now.

2008-08-12T21:40:00.002+08:00

did you read the article from The Sunday Times, 10/08/08 by nur diana suhaimi?

I thought it was pretty enlightening and totally managed to encompass what most of the malay community probably feel over the issues that she mentioned, however sadly true they are :\ worth a read! && it's just great, I think that the article passed for approval, haha, may it set people thinking. but I think, we should all just make the best of what we have, no matter how unfair it seems, haha.

feels darn tired today, dk why. maybe cause of diarrhoea, haha.

I want to be a good muslim. no, wait, I want to be a better muslim. insya allah, amin. seriously, I have religious issues man, this year. 2008 is the record year of me falling sick and yes, religious issues, man. rahhh, I am definitely not on God's top 100 favourite people list.

I want to be a better person.

I did chem bonding today! heyheyhey :D here's to progress and geting into studying mode, raaahhhh-

sudden news && all that jazz. what's new, this peretual state of stress and distress? just adds on to the constant maelstrom of events/emotions in our lives. oohh, the adrenaline rush of it all! so long as it doesnt control you, haha. I still remember, 'control the rifle, nt the rifle control you'. check magazine. check hand grip. arms straighten. tick tick tick. to wear GOH uniform once again.

too much stuffs that requires reading. lect notes, lit texts, and a book that isnt considered as leisurely read to me but done so at leisure. I want to bind my great gastby! and I want to read it!

today I learnt the concept of daylight savings over break! fall back, spring forward! so cool! haha! so it is possible to have >24hrs in a day!

gym tomorrow!

2008-08-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

today feels like a sunday evening-

2008-08-10T09:01:00.003+08:00

catchup with syazhassarahbanu was awesome (: I really miss the melayus despite having two in the same school. somehow, we both agreed that we just cant talk in school, again it's like the whole limbo feeling, haha- (: so as usual, every single one of them was late and I received so many smses, 'hey, I just woke up'. all I can do is eye exercise because it's so expected and yes, some things just dont change (: haha-

our cycling was rejected because it's too darn hot so we just sat in macs till banu complained of feeling claustrophobic where we shifted to a random breakwater and just sit and chat and chat and chat (: what a good day, for I spent it with some of the favourite people in my world, haha- and I'm glad everyone's doing fine. fine means, in a perpetual state of stress but still trying to enjoy life at the same time! I love you guys, veryvery much, haha- so if you see this, have fun (: && study hard for promos!

&& then it was to tamp to give my favourite minah her damn belated gift. you do looked unglam btw, like dazed and disoriented from waking up, haha! (:

nat day celebs at home with the family (: more favourite people. and the comments they passed while watching the parade is too darn priceless, I gave up on laughing- sighhh.

(: it's a sunday. but today it wont feel like a sunday evening, tomorrow will.

2008-08-08T19:57:00.003+08:00

nat day celeb was :D with lao ah peh's retarded 'happy birthday singapore!' before flying down and cold drinks for sale! we earned about 100 after deducting our seed money && stuffs, so hmm thats pretty low but considering our candyfloss machine spoilt @ the very last minute, not bad! (: heh-

watched the dark knight again with batchmates, pretty much LOLed before getting overdued august babies presents. feel so guilty! absolute apologies! haha, for someone who isnt artsy, I think erhhh it's quite okay, HAHA. okay that doesnt really help actually but ah well!

had an interesting convo with kanglong while gift-shopping. I think he's an interesting person, haha and I learnt quite a bit today.

saturday tomorrow! (:

am thankful for the long weekend, tons of stuffs to do, raahh.

2008-08-07T19:38:00.002+08:00

hello filzah! :D my post reminds you of? haha, I dont get yr sentence, hee- see you on sat, babes!

hello, I'm pretty happy today because I've learnt that I can donate my blood despite my blood status! see lah, if I didnt check with the doctor && listen to my mum, I wouldnt have been able to do my part (: so I'm really glad that I managed to donate my blood today! despite knowing that they won't be using my platelets, but the other stuffs that makes up blood. haha! yay! quite fun and interesting. my arm feels numbed just now though- went with jy who sadly couldnt donate cause she has small veins :\ it's nice to see so many victorians donate! haha, the queue was darn long and you'll just spend 2-3 hours waiting for your turn but yep, worth it! the process itself was rather fast, like 3-4 mins?

I smsed my dad to let him know that my parents and I can donate despite the blood status and he smsed back, 'yay, congrats' -.- retard!

tmr's national day! ho-hum. and then, there's saturday! (:

I think the choices we make do matter, so never underestimate your worth as a person to others! a world without you will be so so much more different and sadder, haha!

2008-08-06T22:52:00.002+08:00

most people are stronger than what they think, they just forget to believe in it themselves-

this week has been... haha, jetlag nonsense. forward to friday, rewind to wednesday. my body had to adjust to the different mental preparation for the days accordingly, haha. but the days have been fun-filled laughter :D && chapalang activities- && okay I feel fab today :O

why is it tougher when you're with the closer? and it seems much easier when dealing with the unexpected? is it because you and the unexpected are strangers and therefore strangers tend to give more leeway to people, because you hardly know them, so it's like 'oh it's okay to make mistakes now'. but for the closer, we know each other and hence have more expectations of them. is it? but shouldnt the closer then exert less judgement and more understanding instead? because you're exposed to more flaws && will try to not put the closer's closer in difficult situations- grey areas should be kept to a minimal? to a certain extent at least.

sometimes, I feel like I'm in a limbo, stuck between both worlds, with emotions/thoughts that are stable yet unstable yet stable but hmm let me think.. haha- it's like the heart wants to move forwards yet backwards at the same time, how is that possible? how can it be so different right now? like when going to vj, cedarworld seems so farrr away, like totally distant. but when I'm in cedar, being a victorian seems so unbelievable. like, there's a bubble wrapped around cedar that excludes everyone, execpt for maybe you, me, the school, the guards and ppmacs. sometimes when I pass by vj, I feel quite amazed that I can declare myself a victorian. and yes, I do feel the pride and the awe of it all. its not just the places but the people too. like how I'll always immortalised certain people in my mind with various still snapshots of candid moments that wont ever fade and no matter how many times we meet up, its not the meet ups that are vivid but the years that we've shared.

I don't know wth I'm trying to say through this entry. there's no one message intended to be conveyed from the author, haha. just thinking. people change, thats duh inevitable but somehow I feel this unexplainable sense of loss watching friends remoulding themselves. and for one particular friend, I'm not sure which is sadder. the fact that I can safely say yep, it stops here or the fact that this emotion I've come to terms with is considered the norm. oh, the tragedy. hahhhh. but yes, I do mean it. however, I also know and believe and damn well know that I can count on you. which makes a world of difference from maybe, others. I dont know. haha. despite the people right in front of my eyes, I do miss these very same people, from the ones that were from the past. haha okay maybe someone somewhere out there probably would have thought that I've changed too or something. though I can say safely that physically, I'm still the same. the vertical growth stops sometime in 2002, sheesh kebabs-

haha what an entry. but ohwell, it isnt emo (yucks, what a waste of time when you can probably spend the emo-ing time laughing), more of the flow of thoughts in my mind. raaahhhh.

surprise phone call last night from a friend (: yay to the friend who is damn freaking noisy && drama && exaggerated and this is the giveaway clue, 'pretty pretty princess', kebabs-

how have I changed within these 7 months? okay save it for another day. am too sleepy plus have to bathe. darn tyres blackened my legs, haha-

09/08 :D cant wait-

here's to remembrance eh- haha-

2008-08-03T13:17:00.002+08:00

go to youtube and type- jabbawockeez on ellen show,
worth watching eh :D

august is flooded with birthdays!
:O
happy birthday to one of my favourite people in the world!
are you reading this? haha-

2008-08-02T23:39:00.002+08:00

I wrote an entry but decided to draft it instead.
it's too scary and sad and will probably set off dominoes that are best left standing.

7th month!
pavements are lined up with lit candles,
if you take 80/155, you may just be able to catch it!
but so far so good I'm pretty happy that the strewn paper
has decreased in size, or maybe cause they threw it away after it being used
(: please keep the void deck clean, I totally appreciate it.
it's just not a pretty sight to see the damn grass being white with strewn papers
instead of green. and I mean literally, covered, in every way.

studying with jy is conducive because
1. it's productive!
2. I get entertainment!
so see, what a good balance. sometimes I'll seriously have this :O
in my mind when she talks. if I manage to catch what she talks that is.
LOL- damn joker.

studying in odac room today was conducive!
because of similar reasons. except the entertainers this time
are si han with his 'stop checking me out' line
(when duh, there's nothing of him that is check out-worthy)
and lao ah peh's eventually-successful attempt to secure the national flag to himself.
oh && criticising top 40's taste in ranking, hahhhh-

but seriously, the weather is so darn freaking hotttt lah!
!!!! freakingggg hottttt.

oh yes, and the usual shoes escapade (by some beloved batchmates)
had a breakthrough ytd, considering that mat threw my shoe (yes, only one)
over the freaking fence onto public pavement.
but revenge is sweet thanks to 24th wanping
and the pavement is damnn hottt!!
walking with socks on hot pavement is no walk in the park, hahaha!

what is and supposedly shouldn't be-
you tell me okay.

2008-07-31T23:31:00.002+08:00

1. I'm pretty happy with my pw groupmates
2. I'm pretty satisfied with today's studying with jy, much productivity&&entertainment!

2008-07-30T22:02:00.001+08:00

today was so freaking hot. I wanted to melt.
&& filzah, your smses sort-of perk my day! haha (: love!

2008-07-28T20:21:00.002+08:00

long post ahead? haha!

I haven't been keeping in touch with many people of late. neither do people, it's a two way thing. but I totally understand the reason, because we're all freaking busy! and when we're not, even leisure time has to be compromised for studying (!!!) so here's me apologizing and I totally understand that we're all busy so it's okay if we don't meet up. here's to filzah who I love like crazy for knowing me so well and accepting me with my furballs, insecurities and all, K who I always see in school but have yet to sustain a full convo with! I swear we'd cach up, it's a matter of time, babes! that said, I'm organising melayugang badminton/cycling (like usual, we're freaking healthy people HAHAHA) on 9th august! or the monday after nat day if there's a holiday! so I'd be expecting to see the everyone ah, full strength sarahdeeharsyazfilzfatehahaslina. terima kasih!

eh alamakkk I have yet to receive my letter from mendaki! I am a malay right? I checked with fathiyah and mat and my scores are in between them so technically, if mat gets it, I should too! haha! okay sorry, this sounds materialistic but the money wil seriously come in handy, I'll be using it for sikkim stuffs so that my mum wont have to fork out a titanic amount of money :O so hopefully, I'd get the letter, haha! and sikkim, I am excited for you!!! ohmygosh!

today I'm freaking enlightened, yay, I am happy (: I thought things out, and yep! am pretty comfortable with myself right now (: maybe I took a longer time than most people but eventually, I did reach where I wanna be! plus I thought the talk was helpful, ho hums-

okay I really wanna do better (note: not well, but better) for promos! I will try my best to make use of all the time I have. I dont want to end up in a situation where odac will be my bargaining chip (&& even so, it's not like, I'd get my way once the teachers decide to do something). so okay, for odac && batchmates to be my motivation, I will try my best to improve okay!

&& of course, as always, I'm very thankful to have an amazing support system, even if they're less than 384758505 people (:

pt today was good. haha! one of the things I like after pt is that amazing satisfied feeling after you're done running cause you know you've ran your best and that's what counts! eh I think my running improved, haha even if by abit but still (:

seriously not all mondays are OSIM (oh shit it's monday!) (:

2008-07-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

one/ always keep believing in the goodness of others. there's always the best side in everyone, see them in that light. unless they blatantly show otherwise.
two/ if there are other friends who are juggling more things than you and they are able to stay strong, I can too! :D faith is of the essence! with my superhuman might, kryptonite
three/ I have a rock, an anchor, a constant, a Saviour, an awesome support system in my life.
four/ The person you want to be does exist; somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And, beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.
five/ I'm a slow walker, but I never walk backwards && that's okay with me-

if I dont hold on tight to some of the thoughts to keep me going, I will positively die. therefore I shant! (: I'll choose to come out stronger from everything that I do!

I know there'll be down times but I'll try not to stay down for so long! I know I can do this!

♥ Resilience, Spirit, Might!

says one of the favourite people I know (: -

what a pep-talky post, hahaha.

2008-07-27T19:05:00.000+08:00

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path? Will others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be haunted by your choice? Or will you embrace your own path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simly give up?

hello, all of us are instructors! (:

2008-07-24T21:44:00.001+08:00

I feel quite disturbed, somewhat :\
but I dont know whyyyy.
haha maybe this is why I got a D in lit,
failure to express one's thoughts and lack of close reading of one's emotions-
HAHH.

2008-07-24T00:08:00.002+08:00

it's 12:09! and I've just reached home! with my mum paying the cabfare (since it was unexpected that I'd take a cab home as the last bus was gone already) ! haha (: but it's worth it! hopefully the 24ths will love 25/07, 26/07 as much as we enjoyed making the day special for them! :D

invest in a mere 2 days :O :O :O wow- freaking fast-

cliches of the moment:
it's always a nice feeling when unexpected people makes you smile.
rank is what you wear, respect is what you earn.
the destination is in the journey itself.

ha ha ha. but true nonetheless :D am especially happy/thankful to God (!!!), family&&friends for support, hoho~ :D

I love the 25ths (: haha-

&& I pray some nice soul will trade their next fri spa with my this week's :\

2008-07-21T23:16:00.002+08:00

today I learnt some stuffs-
just stuffs.
but worth mentioning that I've learnt them.

happy rhd!

2008-07-20T17:10:00.003+08:00

HELLO-

I WATCHED BATMAN THE DARK NIGHT TODAY! wooohhh~
good movie! loves it~ love superhero movies (except superman idk why, I just fell asleep during that movie)
haha, the world needs more superheroes, seriously~
&& joker was pretty psychotic && awesome && gory && just depressingly insane, loves it!
so erhh the 2.5 hours was truly worth it!
I wanna watch it again (like so rich like that ah), haha! :D
batman is the most superhero-ey superhero to me, causeeeeee, he has no superpowers at all! he just relies on himself and fancy gadgets, see see so cool righttt. aiseyy mannn.

okay there's #1 at 6.45pm tonight, go catch gogo!

&& the trailer for eagle eye looks pretty cool (:

okay I want money now.

2008-07-19T07:56:00.003+08:00

hello, this week has been hectic like crazy && I've been sleep deprived like mad but it was worth it, truly worth it. for our seniors, for farewell, for everything. I've been antisocial for the whole week, I didnt drop by my ahma's house at all. I bet my nephew has forgotten my face. !!! haha! haha but since I have joe, it's okay. and I have s63, they get me through the humdrum of school life with illegal card-playing and beloved treehouse for sleeping. btw, jomel is back! :D

oh I got a DDSSS, which I find pretty average so okay, pretty expected? good to know I can still count on my humanities-related subs to make me happy (that I've passed). no U's, thats good. so shall work hard for promos! and eradicate all possible signs of S'es. cannot fail ah kebabs. tskk-

yesterday I fell during filming in a very comical manner, that is absolutely real and provides everyone with good filming :O my forehead hurts, ahahhahaha! retard! but yeah, for 5 secs, my world went topsy turvy, haha! the stupid chair refused to fall back to the floor & so I fell into the wall. this is what happens when one attempts to fake tall-ness using chairs. anyway, the world righted itself when I eventually hit the ground and became okay, haha. && you know what, the batch will be like that too.

I love the batch like crazy. && I know, our world will right itself soon, together. I think many people told me before, even since cedar days that I'm too optimistic/unrealistic, happily-ever-after for my own good but I cant help truly believing and knowing that my thoughts will be translated into reality. just a matter of time.

this week was amazing cause it allows me to get in touch with so many people, and I really love it. like ahma and pervert, haha! ahma was super on about helping me with the speech (I dont know how to sell myself la, I hate selling myself, its just wrong, hahaha) && pervert I know was there. baohui was as usual, just there. oh yes, I got in touch with mark, a primary classmate who I havent spoken to for over 5 years till yesterday, it was pretty great. so yeah (: && even talking to raudah from obs cook, haha. its amazing how people are willing to help you (I needed someone with microsoft 07 and <5 were online, it was 2pm) despite not being close. && I talked abit to the librarian when she saw me. so yep.

yesterday's voting was... unique. haha (: my impromptu rather last-min speech was okay considering it's my first speech in my life -.- and the Q&A session was woahhh, being cross-examined by lawyers who want to dig up every single thing about you :O but am pretty happy I got through it, alive and unscathed just slightly traunmatised out of awe that the batch was like that, haha!

I had a very extremely, but no choice-ly retarded phonecall afterwards. sigh. I swear cikgu noorhani has to be proud of me and acknowledge me that I was her student (sidenote: I miss bitching about her in library with the melayugang, I miss the malayness environment of it all- haha!) but I sound weird talking in malay. haha but thanks kakak cacat! :D kak faizah, I really think the word kakak will stick on, seriously -.-

I love my family for being so damnn freaking understanding about every single thing. without them, I will perish. seriously. for monk for making me LOL easily anytime anywhere, esp when he knows I'm dead tired. && for my mum for putting up w my nonsense these days.

oh well, we always have a choice. whether we choose to want to be stronger getting through it all.

must plan aries catchup! and outing with the melayus, rahhh. they are missed-

okay thats all. I'm feeling pretty mixed actually. same reaction as 2 years ago, haha! but oh well (: this 1.5 years will simply be amazing- && entertaining, definitely.

2008-07-14T23:34:00.002+08:00

if I want to feel rich, I have to simply just think of all the things I have that money cant buy,
okay there.
rich already.

I'm perpetually rich, just realistically, financially broke, hahhh-

2008-07-13T10:03:00.003+08:00

haha, I'm sorry but it's partly cause Idk what to write, LOL-

am currently reading the nation's favourite comic poems, here's a few that I love-

Cake
i wanted one life
you wanted another
we couldnt have our cake
so we ate each other
roger mcgough

Survivor
Everyday,
I think about dying.
About disease, starvation,
violence, terrorism, war,
the end of the world.

It helps keep my mind off things
roger mcgough

Wishes of an Elderly Man, Wished at A Garden Party, June 1914
I wish I loved the Human Race;
I wish I loved its silly face;
I wished I love the way it walks;
I wished I love the way it talks;
And when I'm introduced to one
I wish I thought What Jolly Fun!
walter raleigh

Lines on the Death of Chairman Mao
So.
Farewell then
Chairman Mao.

You are the
Last of the
Great revolutionary

Figures. You
And I
Had little in
Common

Except that
Like me
You were a poet.

Though how you
Found time
To write poems

In addition to
Running a
Country of
800 million people

Is baffling
Frankly.
E.J Thribb

One Perfect Rose (an excerpt)
"Why is it no one ever sent me yet
One perfect limousine, do you suppose?
Ah no, it's always just my luck to get
One perfect rose."
dorothy parker

hahhhhh, the one on mao is pretty cute.
&& all of them makes perfect sense.
like the second, third, last-

today I learnt that apostate means murtad.

"You ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives have we been in, we're we a part of someone's life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died. Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it."

a lengthy posts that speaks of everything yet tells nothing, wth-
cause half the times, idk how to express my thoughts && instead
conveniently used such words to do the telling (:

2008-07-10T08:27:00.002+08:00

right now, I only want time, be it simple leisure alone time or with my family or close friends. laidback, just relaxing, nothing on my mind, not feeling tired at all. just, time. nothing related to school whatsoever. watching mindless shows on internet/tv, reading random books, just playing w my nephew, letting the afternoons roll by just like that. I want that.

but apparently, I'm too broke to even afford time.

2008-07-08T21:01:00.002+08:00

do not let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game;

&& I didnt! haha, more like, a just-whack mindset. out to play, out to have fun!
&& I did have fun (: haha, the 10minutes really passed fast, haha!
I think we spent more time laughing at ourselves && running around than we did at scoring
because our opponents were :O haha madness!
so.. despite, feeling darn scared && freaking nervous before the day started,
haha I'm damn glad I went to play! :D made friends with amyfeliciajocelynlijun, so yep (:
stayed till 8? till finals, haha- for the fun of it && to support lynx and since im going back home late anyway, why dont I just round it up and end off with a satisfied feeling-
good job to everyone who played willingly or otherwise, LOL-
like ahbu && weiting, haha! weiting is like super damn last min sub pls.

haha, okay thats really a step-outside-yr-comfort-zone moment for me.
oh yes, plus point/bonus part/person of the day: P!
glad for the bus ride home together and the h2h talk, haha.
&& I'm reminded of the things that matter through our conversation.
seriously, times like this just further reinforces the fact that it takes two to maintain a friendship.
with P, there's that same easy flow of words between us despite the many months of no-talking.
if you dont make the effort && you dont show that you care,
a person who still goes all out for you is truly the greater person, in my eyes.
being unconditional and all that-

*P is not the starting letter of the person, haha.

8k tmr :O haha, all the wayyyyy.
so long as I dont stop (:

ohmygosh the aunty is selling brownies again! am totally gonna contribute more to the underprivileged kids! haha-

ohh and pe was spastic but it was good fun with erm five guys && four girls -.- nice one.

freaking long post but yeahhhh.

"Kahlil Gibran once wrote; 'You're reason and your passion are the rudder.. and the sails of your seafaring soul. If either be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas. For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burn to it’s own destruction."

2008-07-07T10:31:00.002+08:00

this is uninhibited bliss~

am I the only one who just can't seem to move on? give me a chance to relive a day, and I'll pick a friday last year, any friday, that includes you, me and just us-

thats 16 of us, excluding those involved as NCOs for last parade (:

here's to torn slacks/big changing room/ bathing together/seeing each other strip/ thrashing sessions && to squadmates forever-

2008-07-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

"Out of the night that covers me, black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be for my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeoninga of chance my head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears looms but the horror of the shade, and yet the menace of the years finds, shall find, me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, how charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul."

`william ernest henley; invictus
one tree hill season 3, episode 6: locked hearts && hand grenades-
voiceover done by lucas scott-

2008-07-01T22:17:00.003+08:00

recently, I realised that I've been rather absent-minded/forgetful.
too many things on the mind?
if so, what? :O
or just plain old forgetfulness?
aahh dont want!
annoying yet strangely scary :\

2008-07-01T20:48:00.002+08:00

no more hanging around cause we're on a different track-

not true, not true.
today alone I talked to some amazing people (:

2008-06-28T21:33:00.002+08:00

what an extremely busy and tiring yet enjoyable and fulfilling day (:

higlights of pinnacle ngee ann adventure race'08:

1. camwhoring (ohmygosh!) to the photographers along the route/at the finish line/before the race despite our veryvery unglam state! but ah well (:
2. encouraging other fellow racers despite not knowing them (: it really feels good cause you know it simply feels nice when fellow racers encourage each other despite the stranger-ship! && when you see them again at other points during the race, both teams will acknowledge each other (:
3. having an imba partner like lauren, I really enjoyed the time spent racing with her (:
4. literally bonding with my said imba partner! through ermm our bodily fluids (!!), haha. I know I've always had a veryveryvery close friend in her, but I felt that we've gotten closer since this year. hoon, am I imagining? :\ HAHA- I do know that we both share the same lack of civility when situations call for it, and we do it willingly!
5. HAHA, completing the swimming task! ohmann I was dreading that cause I'm a rather poor swimmer and I get extremely cautious if the depth is more than 1.5m, which means I cant touch the ground :O but yay, I did it! haha partly cause the depth was 1m so abit more confident :D
6. do not do races if you are sick. if you insist on doing so, haha, good luck- but it's possible! cause, chikalongtongchangtongchang! did it! :D
7. archery, abseiling && tylorean traversing! ohygosh, I love these two! wish it was higher/longer distance though :D
8. the fact that chikalongtongchangtongchang! (with the exclaimation mark okay) fulfill all of our aims! in order of priority: (a) do our best! (b) just whack && have fun! (c) get top three, LOL-
9. meeting filzah at ngee ann! coincidentally (:
10. extremely proud of batchmates! :D every single pair (: ST&&BW who clinched 2nd, AD&&FT who clinched 1st (youth women), QA&&LF who clinched 2nd (youth men) and MS&&WI(haha! they beat the 24ths :P)

highlights of the day:
-pinnacle race!
-meeting filzah!
-went out with ahma! (: for pervert's stuff-
-buying 3 secondhand books for $5!! what a steal! :D
-borrowing 3 more books (:
-feeling tired yet extremeeeeely satisfied :D

the lunch was rather nice, I like the fish :D
dropped by home to get some stuff before going to the nat'l library (:
rushed to meet ama to settle pervert's birthday! (:
bought a couple of boosk, am extremely happy, am extremely psychotic,
when the hell will I ever have that much time -.-

am freaaaaking tired, my feet is killing me :O
&& I'm sick.

there's 2star kayak tmr~
-excited! haha! dancer pls! :D

school next week :O

need to sleep.

2008-06-26T23:38:00.002+08:00

am pretty happy with this layout (:

exams are over. thank God, truly, really thank God.
I don't think I could have gotten through such a freaking intensive threedays of exams without the strength from God && within- (&& my mum!)
especially morning crash courses, absolute last minute sprinter-
so mhmmm if anything else, whatever results I produce will probably be 30% my abilities and 70% work of God.
results will be excitingly-predictable :O

erghh I feel, so, so bad- like, since the start of this year!
it's annoying how schedules are never ideal, so you gotta make the best of it
but then, school ends late and the only pathetic excuse I'm left to offer is: fatigue
and that seriously is bullshit-
definitely, not referring to academic stuff. let that take a backseat for now.
thou shalt not assume-
actually, I've come to terms with it and know where the problem is
but whenever it surfaces in my mind, I'm left with thinking,
'okay, will sit down one day and question myself-'
but the day never comes -.-

now that exams are over, I can play catch up!
with people like filzah/diyanah/ahma/muu...
I hope! :\ trying to find time to go out w the '63girls is already tough enough,
haha! but my efforts shall prevail!
it is but the oil in the grooves of friendship-
:D so yep!
am very :D for batchmates and them!
oh it felt like I havent seen us for ages when school started,
when technically the last we saw of each other was subway day -.-

I realise I'm going to be broke soon.
like, tomorrow in fact.
pinnacle food, hoonthefool's stuff, mhhmmmm.
am excited for pinnacle! :D

random pet peeve:
dislikes it when people unconsciously say ily but they meant 'thank you' instead.
'ohmygosh can you help me with blablabla'
'yeah okay can can'
'yay! ily!'
like ??? -.- that's just an example, haha.
if anyone says that to me, I'll just go kay, no prob'
instead of responding with a ly-too -.-
it's like you've cheapened such an important phrase -.- and you don't mean them,
so what's the point right?
pretty soon, ily will be used for 'excuse me..' -.-

I think I'm falling sick! the sore throat is there already!
I'm feeling veryvery thirsty :X

bytheway, there's madagascar 2 coming up soon! ohmygosh!
my mum: 'eh okay must watch!
ohmannn, my beloved mafia, cool, dashing, sleek, fat, tubby penguins will be back!
I really like watching them, their skins are so shiny, and their tuxedoes HAHA, retards.
:D to skipper,private,rico and I forgot the last penguin! haha ohwell! cant wait!
wanted, getsmart, 21, caspian!

today I felt so enlightened during many moments :O
how interestingly educational! :D

what a very once-in-a-while long post :O

2008-06-24T19:42:00.003+08:00

two more days and it'd all be over.
at the rate we kept listing down the stuffs we wanna do,
it's as if promos will be over soon :D
anyway, silin was right,
it's only when I see them that I realised they were missed (:
so yes (: it was good to be back, haha minus the exams.
I foresee changes in the near future but well,
sometimes things dont turn out the way you expect them to.
they may even get better (:
anyway, I truly thank God for today, ahahaha!
2 papers down, 3 to go!
&& tomorrow's feeling of 'It's over!'
will be magnified by 10387348474 times.
it's maths AND lit, please :D go go!

2008-06-23T13:40:00.002+08:00

muu: heyhey, last minute sprinters are the best please :D
yati: what blog name, one shot? haha, long time no see, CI.
shazreen: shazreen! shazreen! dont be a stranger ehs. && stop changing yr number pls-

things to do after mids, alot. one of them being, play catchup with friends :D (:

3 days left to liberation (albeit temporary but heck).

2008-06-21T19:02:00.002+08:00

#1. each time I see little old chinese ladies, I have to resist the urge to ask whether they bound their feet when they were young. their feet, in those typical black (with one strap) pumps looks super small! a size 3, I'd bet.

#2. 21 is still showing in theatres! I want to watch: get smart, panda, caspian :O

#3. I went for a run just now and I want to die :O halfway through, my back started aching, my knees started aching. and I started wondering, how old am I? ! I feel old ): and out of shape, haha! must run more on my own! :D

#4. everyone deserves a celebration after thursday, whether you've studied or not. maybe it's the vegetation period after o's but I dont quite feel that I'm in my study mode despite it being only a mere 2-3 days before the dreaded papers begin -.- kamikaze! haha && I don't think I'm the only one, K was telling me she ponned physics lectures && tutorials gaily without a care in the world. oh, K, what happened to you!

#5. my brother is growing vertically at an absurd rate, he should be banned! seriously! what the pls. he can sling an arm happily around my shoulders now w/o feeling uncomfy. pretty soon, he'll start leaning on me. wooh~ I'm gonna look younger beside him, yeahh mann.

#6. evelyn, my tutor was telling me of her training as a stewardess! pretty cool but mighty stringent and tough. passing an exam requires 80%? :O && exam schedules' are given 2 days beforehand, ! its apparently the cheaper way to travel since everything's pretty much there for you, thats cool-

#7. friend: aiyahh just take mid years as practice for promos la- good thinking. except I'll die in the long run upon seeing how much it drags down my promos. haha! enough worries~ will just :D try my best and study as much as I can! at most, do corrections (:

keep going!

2008-06-20T23:10:00.003+08:00

HERE'S SOME SPANKING GOOD NEWS-
(that may not apply to whoever that reads this, if anyone reads this)

I'm damn damn damn ass-kicking proud of jennifer, banu, yati! for finally POP-ing out and becoming PCIs! like wooohhh~ and jen's best female shooter plus best trainee plus valedictorian for the batch! say, IMBA! (echoes-) ohmygosh! I'm extremely proud of them! I swear, aries is like whoooshhhh, zai to the max, HAHAHA- I'm still :O and :D about it! :D HEE- am freaking happy for them! totally deserved it after the gruelling trainings and burnt saturdays! :D :D :D for our imba 3 CIs! woooh~ can imagine the 'fun' the juniors will have under them :D ohmygosh!!!

!!!

2008-06-20T17:38:00.002+08:00

race clinic today-
abseiling is fun! haha! :D loves it!
chikalongtongchangtongchang! (our team name) is damn happy that there is no rock climbing!
like, woohooo~
and no swimming! :D great, LH wont have to rely on cats that have 70% chance of drowning-
:D hee- haha! am looking forward to pinnacle race now :D
oh and there are 4 women's teams :X, which means what exactly? :D
haha I hope pinnacle will be awesome :D && fun like dare-

went to cedar to collect grad certs.
wooh~ it looks damn cool and professional, with a hardcover folder and stuff-
ahahaa!
&& some h2h talk, kind of? LOL-
interesting anyway-

funny how when we were young, we crave for playfriends,
any will do. but now, that just means superficiality-

I shall finish econs today! I hope :\
bahh, PW will be a pain after mid years, yucks-

I think I met my batchmates like 80% of this june hols :O
not sure why, but it feels busy to me.
woohh~ loves it.

2008-06-19T10:38:00.002+08:00

jomel: HELLO. ergh, I'm sick of seeing subway! :\ haha! :D

yesterday was good time with good company from 8am till 10plus pm, lovely-

am really really thankful to the victorians and nonvictorians for coming down ytd! we lost to HC by 9points, but it's okay! haha! strangely, all of us felt okay/neutral about it (: we did gave our best, so no regrets! && most importantly, the batch had fun going through this together, haha! esp the shared thoughts about the media, ahem-

school in a few days, bahhh-

2008-06-17T20:36:00.003+08:00

I can die talking to GT and BW online -.- they're laming me to death :O and the crapboard is O.O seriously, I'll just LOL-

sent my cousin off to australia for her 3-year study course in monash uni, so cool ehs~
takes guts and $ to be brave enough to go overseas.
I mean, 3 years without your family?!
(okay with the sporadic breaks in between but come onnnn..)
if it was me, I'll video/record snippets of family/friends
so that I can blast them in my room in an attempt to make the place feel like home again.
haha ohwell.
prays that she gets there safely, have a crazy fun time and most importantly, be safe-

I want to travel! I want to go backpacking! bahhhh.

it's the subway challenge tmr! HAHA~
surprisingly am rather excited over it, LOL-
prays that we get the needed 200 people by tomorrow 1230pm!
(: we've done our best so the results will be accepted with grace!

2008-06-16T19:40:00.002+08:00

I miss the 27-
I really miss the noise && company && the talks that are uninhibited due to lack of guys, HAH-
sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one who misses us-
hope not-
if I resurrect the blog, will it be alive?-
:D haha it's simply great when word gets around on how one of us is doing,
I'll be feeling, wwooooohhhh~ zai zai squadmates I have-

am feeling a tad :\ hahhhh not sure why-

haha, sometimes I look around and cant help thinking,
what spastic batchmates I have! :D
am really glad I'm one of the 25th PIs (Is to be), hee-
otherwise I cannot LOL as often-
the word that comes to mind when I'm with them: comfortable-

okay must study! progress is lousy, haha (:

2008-06-15T14:23:00.004+08:00

jomel: HELLO! ahahah, because you start with a J! yay~
mrs blank: I know who you are, I think- ! isnt yr initial down there somewhere? look closely woman! && you alwaysssss take advantage of my existence! :O I should like, disappear one day and remain incommunicado to you siaaxZzXZz- :P mrs blank, my arse- plus, yah! why do you need my love when you have an abundance of it -.-

people tagging using random names are interesting people.
ANYWAY-

I'm done watching the hottest convict on earth :D :D :D

now, I cant wait for midyears to be over! haha 3 days of torture-

my nephew keeps smothering mein crazy kisses, even when I dont ask for them, hahaha- so cute :D

W: If they didn't want me out of here and your nephew was safe, would you
still be doing this?
M: Breaking out? No.
W: Why would you choose to stay if there was a chance at freedom?
M: Well, I guess that's the difference between us. I'm willing to pay for
my sins.
W: And I'm not?
M: That's a good question.

2008-06-14T21:48:00.002+08:00

how many imba friends do you have, who you know will chop-stamp help you out in the most stickiest of situations, who will be up awake at 3am if ever such a need arises? that's just speaking theoretically. the recent events that have unfolded before me, whether literally or not just reminds me again of the precious people whom I can count on to do all they could to help me out or make me feel better :D and for this, I truly love them- && it goes without saying that I try my best to not fail any of my loved ones as well.

that said, I saw B today and I go, yayyyy :D :D meet-ups are few and rare and when we do, its just insane laughter && endless talks. but well, I have a friendship who've already proved that the physical element is no barrier to erhhh longevity (is that even the right word, man). so yayyy and I've exposed your true monk-like self to your president. you are in other words, dead and your reputation (or whats left of it) is falling around you :D you can rant && race && complain to me via our long phone calls, I'll just be grinning/smirking on the other end, ily-

&& another one- M who totally totally helped me with the subway thing! I am so freaking thankful :D you are the best! (I typed minah but backspaced that :P out of mercy ) I am in constant awe on how I dont feel distant to you despite our sporadic smses and irregular online chats (: long live our friendship, ily- && how I can say whats on my mind and what troubles me (if I am) easily, still-

names not here arent forgotten, people like K! , S! , F! , D! and manymany others for the times and h2h talks that will always flow easily between us- even those who I dont talk much now to like E, L- :D they still remain as awesome friends in my eyes

&& if you do know me, I don't say/speak/declare ily's and imy's and whathaveyous as easily as how singaporeans litter.

was smsing J today && the sudden distant feeling just struck me, with ref. to my class :\ sheesh kebabs- hahhhh ):

ultimate daidee-playing today. like 17-20 rounds from morning till late afternoon, yeah- madness. && I was never an asshole or a slut,thankyouthankyou-

I didnt study at all today :O big whoop. time was spent on daidee while waiting for teams to arrive && watching prisonbreak online nowwwww- ultimate. I'm so dead for mid years, bahhh-

here's a dyk: singapore aims to achieve a recycling rate of 60% by 2010-

here's my list of priorities right now-

family>friends&&odac>studies

&& I wonder why I'm dead for mid years.

good news: more people for subway! I'm loving it, padapapa~

2008-06-13T19:24:00.001+08:00

FT: I WANT! :D

IM GOING TO DIE FOR MID YEARS, seriously-
I'll die with dignity, or whats left of it, hahhhhhhhhh-

2008-06-12T18:54:00.002+08:00

jomel: HELLO! :D longg time no seeeeeee-

yay, bought havainas pratas (! HAHA) with LH.
spent one hour and tried on 8 pairs plus all
cross-pair combis that we could think of before eventually
deciding on the colours that we want.
erh bet the shop assts were pissed, esp the 1st one {:

today, I read 3-4 edward monkto's stuff/works/poems,
(they are very short, like kid's books)
ahahaha so cute okay I like! esp the funnyfunny illustrations.
I think whatever he writes is rather meaningful
and what makes it so special is that he puts the most obvious
in the most simplistic child-like manner yet it kinda
remind me back of the basic things in life-
&& some of them are satirical I think,
poking fun at our human vices, ahahaha,
his penguin of death is so cute, cant stand it.

so on my reading list now:
1.edward monkton's works, for cute illustrations && meaningful poems
2.dante's inferno! but this is rather ex but I've always been fascinated by it ever since I read picoult's tenth circle && I want to read it && be fascinated by his painted words of hell-
3.pablo neruda's translated selected poems I want! the way he says things is so pretty (sounds bimbotic) ahahaha but reallyyy, it's really nice, skimmed through just now
4.the guide to reading list for dummies! hahhhh, this is prob a waste of $ but it's quite cool to read what they've recommended for all genres
5.haruki murakami's the elephant vanishes! my favourite will always be a wild sheep chase && kafka on the shore
6. how to be an elizabeth bennet of jane austen! HAHA this is funny, it's almost like a game where you read through the scenarios and answer accordingly to the pages to attempt to be the elizabeth bennet of today. I have yet to read pride && prejudice, lousyyy-

no money ):
plus no time ):
plus I have yet to finish great expectations ):
plus I'm going to flunk mid years although I hope not ): I hope God hears me :B
plus holidays are ending ):

lets be optimistic!

holidays ending= 2star kayak! dancer! :D
exams will end in 3 days! :D
investiture= knowing the room's padlock code, cheap thrill :D
we'll be instructors! drop the P! :D

hahhhhhh-

2008-06-09T21:17:00.003+08:00

hello I'm back-
eh the prev tagger sounds like marliyana or sarah but ah well,
am super sure it's a malay though :P
aiyah, not my loss, hahaha-

erhhh. I think this blog will be ratherrather dead-
I'm always contemplating to shut it down, bahhh.

my dad just came in looking all mighty pleased
&& then he flaunted bedroom slippers that he 'stole'
from the hotel we stayed in :O
he said, 'eh, I paid for my hotel stay pls, inclusive for this!'
&& the knick knacks stuffs like pen/pencil/notepad whatever.
cheapo! but I still love my dad, hahhh.

2008-06-05T21:21:00.002+08:00

torn is when you want to be in both places at once but you can only be in one place && you actually know where is that.

&& today was a good day, with good company(s) :D

2008-06-04T20:13:00.002+08:00

dee: imy. HAHHA. seriously -.- go organise outing la, pemalaszxzxzxz- HEE-

to brighter futures && more crazy moments with such rad people-
hohum.
STUDY LAH-

2008-06-03T10:34:00.003+08:00

I was eating tiger biscuits
when my nephew crawled @ a fast pace to me.
he kept motioning to my food && so
I fed him my biscuit in pieces,
he eventually ate 1.5 of tiger.
&& he refused to eat when my ahma gave him the
mashed-up version of tiger so it'd be easier to swallow.
kept happily grinding his teeth in the biscuits.
and ouch, he kept biting my hands.
I felt like I was feeding the penguins.
he kept biting my nails and sucking my fingers.
ha ha ha. penguins.

2008-06-01T21:33:00.002+08:00

my sleeping pattern is messed-up.
so's my appetite. a cause for concern, ahem-
&& erm, I must start studying soon -cringes
but yes, I will not flunk mid years. insyallah.
hopefully.
I need to wish myself fortune -waves

hello muu, if you're reading this (I doubt it),
here's me letting you know that we're such cool friends.
really, our f/s taught me that strong bonds are not created
from movies/going out together/shopping,
cause we didnt do any of that, at all :O
go minahXzzZx

surprise of the day was meeting baohui @ enviro :O was shocked to see this rush of blur zooming/squealing && crashing into me.

awesome friends are hard to come by. mhmmm.

today, I thought alot :O && pondered && reflected && questioned :O

mhmmm miss chionging down for apt w life and bottle.
sometimes I'll take out my life from my drawer,
fiddled around with it, twirled it around,
&& eventually put it back inside, feeling slightly lost
and out of place holding onto something so precious
and old and well-worn and well-treasured.
something so has-been, what a great company.
&& then I'll gaze at it for awhile,
a mass of blurred memories that has touched the wood.
sometimes, I think I take care of the life better than myself.
yes well, I pride on it never ever touched the ground from a fall before.
I wonder whether the juniors now managed to feel the same way
as I do. or maybe it's just me being all silly-sentimental
over a silly piece of bamboo from beach road.
hey, you're talking about my life here (:

enough talk, wooh~ byebye.

2008-05-31T20:23:00.002+08:00

today's meet up was enlightening yet saddening, somewhat.
yeah-
I want OT again! cant wait for sikkim now,
I bet the preparations will be double/triple the amount! cool.
&& cant wait for us to study tog otherwise I'll just die for midyrs :O

days with odac are love-
love in the [odac] club~
have I mentioned that I love my batchmates? :D

&& I missed mission singapore today -.- hahhhh.
fingergun fight would be spastic to the max I think.

hols are here, make use of it!

it felt weird but I couldnt place a finger on what's wrong about it till today.
oh yeah.

2008-05-30T07:06:00.002+08:00

what a long hiatus-
OT is over, chamah is over.
totally, absolutely, one heck of an experience.
my limbs ached from the physical of it all,
my stomach hurts from being drunk on laughter-
love to the 25th PIs!
:D

2008-04-29T20:02:00.002+08:00

replytags-
fathiyah: wols ah :P
tornado terrapinxxzz: see you!

I am done with napfa'08! -dance around && I'm pretty happy with all my stations :D
yay to s63! esp those that got what they didnt expect to! (in a good way)
I went home pretty early today~
&& I changed my handphone! (: but my messages are gone ):

2008-04-26T20:17:00.002+08:00

replytags-
anonymous: this must be HARHARHAR, righrightright? :P
fathiyah: FATHIYAH! (since you screamed my name HAHA)

one.
we got through the preliminary round! HAHAHA. spas to the max. throw face la. was rather sian-ed by the whole fake media thing going on -.- but good company means good time! :D I wonder what other random task they'll throw at us next.

two.
aaahhhh! this is the 2nd time that I can't get a replacement for my dying hp! out of stock la, this la that la. tskk-

three.
:D :D yay! met up with baohui just now, she dropped by my house, haha! been ages seyyy. proper ketchup soon :D :D && my converse will be prettier!

four.
I finally got new socks! finding time to do mundane stuff like getting new socks or cutting the hair has proved to be rather difficult lately, bahhh. haha, what to do, man.

five.
I'm broke. I'm poor. I'm in destitude. I'm in poverty. watashi wa binbo des. HAHA. oh mann. LOL- all thanks to the sudden exposure for the arts. && now I'm going for piano too -faints

apm is starting today. sudden flashback to sec2 days. mad craze. coughkhairulcough. I wonder wth have they done to my vandalised 'aku adalah khairul anuar' chair :P

&& I love oh dee aye see.

2008-04-23T19:38:00.002+08:00

replytags-
sarah: hi sarah, you're missed too~

a happy family is an earlier heaven (:

if you find the profile picture familiar, that's because you've seen it before in my twowaystreet layout (:

2008-04-22T21:25:00.002+08:00

replytags-
jomel: KILLS YOU. THANKS AHHH. I cold war w you then you know :P

one.
I'm done w 2.4! like yay yay clapclap dances around~ good job to all of s63! clapclap! :D haha I missed my A but! I did push myself and hence, beat my personal best clapclap. ahaha so yeah I'm fine w it. so long as my best has been given (:

two.
everyday is an ODAC day :D
nat track && fields tmr! :D

three.
I believe in miracles~

you sexy thanggg~~

2008-04-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

Being happy doesnt mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

I think, I'll always be 14 at heart (:

with all its sham and drudgery, it is still a beautiful world.

(: seriously, it's our attitude that makes awhole lot of difference, whether we want our day to be lousy or happy :D someone in sec2 taught me, 'it's a matter of perception.' && the phrase sticks on.

for in the face of aridity and discenchantment, it [love] is as perennial as grass~

2008-04-16T19:33:00.002+08:00

replytags-
dee: HAHA. msn!? ma'am shirlyn neo? wth is msn?! LOL-

if a genie pops out today and says, 'hello cat, care to make a wish?',
I'd say, ' do come back another time when I can think of what to wish for-'
in the here && now, I want no downs to be erased, no ups to be lost.
:D

today I found out where kallang water venture is at.
see, you learn something new every day (:

2008-04-13T16:01:00.016+08:00

mhmm. here are some random yet hoho-worthy pictures.

with pride and love let's sing this song~

this is my mum. powder overload.

this is my dad's attempt at modelling. aiseyy mann, total cmi la eh. HAHA.

margaret the pervert.

jomel && the present the guys gave, moku. wth! haha.

HAHAHAHAHA. I HAD to post this up, it was screaming at me to be posted! puma's attempt to emo. but of course, we're too cool&&happy to be successful. por yee's haircut wins here.

hi esther, you panda. you are missed! bimbooo~

danish! update! crawling @ a super fast speed and currently babbling in his own language.

joel's bonding graph. HAHAHAHA. cant stop laughing when I saw this. I really love s63, like alot. weird && random crazy stuff happens each day.

whirlwind gave our GIs this! check out jason's ultimate gayness box! the black&&pink!

and they, in turn, gave us these! :D

edit/: only lucky people get to see what this space was meant for (: /edit

see, every nco squad will soon learn that debrief file is 70%reference, 30% entertainment. LOL- I miss those days of reading messages written by squadmates through debrief file.

everything will come to a full circle and so it is understandable that the last photo is of cedar.

~~of course the fact that it's at cedar is rather minor here.~~

~~cadet, what's with the crooked magazine?! stand on one leg some more. arms not by your side. what's this.~~

I swear I just committed suicide by posting the last pic up but the temptation's too good to resist. plus, hoon, it's not like it's an unglam shot. rather glam actually. the subject in the photo above is my hot/zai/chio/only discriminated by me squadmate. she's really good at her job y'know, being an assthol (pun intended) and all that. so don't playplay. my squadmates are all damn zai.

yesterday was a damn good day :D mtp was a bore, only to be spiced up by the convos mecheryljyLBA(HAHAHA)yoyo had. erhh random indeed. oh and caramel biscuits from ahmah, thanks! :D

evening-night was the ultimate. birthday celebrations @ the hospital && margaret's house was awesome :D :D :D a gazillion :D is not enough to justify the fact that we are 4 years old now. woohh~ can enter kindergarten eh. so it was junk food+fistofzen+cardgames+hilarious moments. and of course, plenty of love to go around.

okay, off to change handphone. like, finallyyy.

I should have used this blogging time to settle PI or study econs but ohwell. HAHA.

2008-04-10T23:11:00.003+08:00

...what a wondrous time is spring, when all the trees are budding

the birds begin to sing, the flowers start their blooming

that's how it is with God's love, once you've experienced it.

you want to sing, it's fresh like spring,

you want , yes you want,

to pass, to pass, it on

pass it on, pass it on

pass it, pass it

pass it on...

because today is the 10th april, and because it is you guys,
happy 4th all you 27 out there (:
deep down high up, duhh, aries is STILL the best :D
a sisterhood like no other :D

see you on the 12th (:

2008-04-06T19:19:00.002+08:00

my phone dropped today! I should anticipate its death soon~
&& I'm happy cause I paid myself back for the lack of sleep (:

tomorrow marks another brand new week!

2008-04-04T22:35:00.002+08:00

accumulation of lack of sleep pushed and dumped on friday= bad combi.
thank god it was a rather short day, with speech day being the valid reason.
otherwise I probably would have, I dont know, doused myself in some acid during chem prac or something.

final cctraining with margaret and m.shermaine (:
yes, cedarccteam can do this!
I've seen it, and I know they can!
:D

speech day @ cedar was (:
seeing everyone in their college blazers gives me a wooh~ feeling,
how.. older we look.
the reception was not bad, the brownies are nice.

CONGRATS TO MY DEARDEAR BRINJAL JENNIFER PHANG EE LING for freaking getting the outstanding award! likee WOAHHH please :D we (margaretmesyazhaslina) totally jumped up lah, standing ovation yall! WOOH JENNIFER! steadyy la. someone is super zai seyyyy.

woohed~ the entire event. choir+tldance+band gave awesome performances, I am proud to be a cedarian. took pictures with my family, some of 4I, margaret (random sey!), clarissa (guides) and some of sirius, haha (: sweaty and hot in blazer, bahhh. talked to a few teachers, cikgu just gave us a distracted hello, wth! && mrs loy whacked my head with some papers when she saw me in the canteen, another wth! was stunned :O

pictures soon, once I hunt down the camera cable thingy.

car rides with my dad can involve random topics but it's good time (: I was telling my dad, and he only said, 'I'd say, go for it. you just ask yourself, do you want to be in the system?' mhmm, good question, I say. I'm leaning towards no. being there, no strings attached is completely a 180 degree difference to being part of the system, LOL- haha, can't be as pro as someone who's damn gay, not just today but every other day HAHAHA. ah well, for all you know, I may change my mind,bahhhh like odac. bahhh.

bad news twice over =\ whywhywhy.
then again, things gotta be tried&&tested&&reflected before you can call it quits (:
you'll be missed, dude!

2008-04-02T23:04:00.005+08:00

replytags-
ahmah: HAHAHA. oh mannn. thanks ah! I'm mrs ohmygod that's britney's shameless!

decided: will change phone asap! the moment I have a free time! must must. my phone is dying && it's rejecting my sent smses or outgoing calls.

aunty didn't come yesterday so no brownie ): sad right. I was, so so sad okay. it's the highlight of tuesday, HAHAHA. && then today, she came, but no brownies only cookies. HAHA. okay ignore this, I sound deprived.

trust is when, you tell someone something that's highly important to you, something that will surely kill you if it gets out :O

today I went to the toilet with a pencil without knowing why. ask jomel lah huh :P

yay yay huang baohui is in tj students council! I'm super proud of her :D she's so gonna kick asses la while being there! yay! (:

today's pt session was good :D
25 storey building X 4
25 pumpings X 4
25 situps X 4
25 squats X 4
2.4km in which I suck at, maybe it's the energy depleted from the stairs or something but bahhhh. haha, but chillax, will work on it, man! :D shall aim high and get 13.30! by napfa hopefully! I am a 15 now judging from sec4 && PE (that's neither good nor bad, haha!) && pass ms ng's crazy aim. ultimately, I have nothing to say if I did put in my best :D

woohoo. I know some friends are highly/moderately stressed out/ exhausted from their various ccas/ committments in school (: but keep telling yourself that you're a survivor, man! (: passion for the committment makes it less tiring somehow, it's a miracle. cause you enjoy doing it (: constructive criticism = good way to improve on yourself (: whateve rit is, don't compromise your health.

shall impose the sleep-by-11 rule from next week onwards! just like sec4 days. go, me!

2008-04-01T20:09:00.002+08:00

I'm ms american dream since I was seventeen...

silly song stuck in my head after pw (bahh!! ahmahhh!)

here's a stanza from one of the poems I like (:
it's funny.

"It is true love because
I put on eyeliner and a concerto and make pungent observations about the great issues of the day
Even when there's no one here but him,
And becauseI do not resent watching the Green Bay Packer
Even though I am philosophically opposed to football,
And because
When he is late for dinner and I know he must be either having an affair or lying dead in the middle of the street,
I always hope he's dead."

hahaha! what the hell, right.
to read more, click!
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/true-love/

today was a very mhmmms dayy.
lit to analyse, econs to understand, here we go.

2008-03-31T21:07:00.002+08:00

replytags-
terrapin: you wish ah, HAHAHA.

wooh~ damn tired today.
but good job to 25ths PIs -clapclap (: cleared stuffs (: excitinggg!

ran 3k with germaine, woohoo, fun I say. ecp was super empty lah (: loves it! haha yeahhh.
sat w germaine/lauren/steph.

okay, schedules' getting more hectic for everyone! jiayou! (: dont give up, dont stress, yeah! youre doing fine, wherever you are (:

2008-03-31T00:37:00.002+08:00

funny how chance occurences just happen... totally didnt see it coming.
HAHA. funny how my msn nick can just spark off a convo that hmmm, was last seen like years ago? :O

you and me won't be unhappy says:
I do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses
nobody,not even the rain, has such small hands
~syikin~ > not even the rain has such small hands [aries] says:
(: nice one.

&& we sound so stranger-like =\ I laugh. from silly childish quarrels in pri sch to this, man. how we've changed. a whole lot.

yes well, all the same. It was nice knowing that your friend has been doing fine.
nice one lah, e.e cummings, mr i-dont-use-caps, for being that spark (:

to remembrance.

2008-03-30T19:16:00.002+08:00

replytags-
diyanah: OMG YOU'RE LAME LAH. PI WTH! cough I cannot pick you see, because sighhhh DIFFERENT NATIONALITIES. havent you heard, variety is the spice of life! -grin :D yay yay GONG CHAN YAY.
yoyo: oh hello, long time no see yr spamming! HAHHH. wth.

yay, today has been relatively productive!

one. I finished mygirl! I approve of the ending, though I dislike the conflicted near-ending episodes ): hahhhh. gong chan gong chan! -clapclap I want to kill kim sae hyun and the ah gong, wth. && I love the soundtracks. I'm tempted to start on a new drama but nooooo, must chillax, man. discipline, girl, discipline (: diyanah, recommendations? :P

two. I'm done with my PI! && I'm satisfied with it (: hopefully no rejections or much do-over needed. today is unofficially PI day.

three. I'm done with chemical bonding! I THINK. HAHA. please dont ask me questions, I may just discovered that I understood nothing, LOL- but then again, that may be a good thing.

four. I tried out a new jogging/running route! yay I'm happy. hopefully my physique can improve (: sucks now, seriously, haha.

five. bourne supremacy has started I think. bahh bet I cant watch. mdm kee's face keeps resurfacing in my mind, I should do econs. && annotate amos toh's poem. && print GE chaps 6-10. && && &&.... the list goes on.

eee can you tell that the past week has been homework overload?

2008-03-29T20:50:00.002+08:00

konbanwa!
(this reminds me of a certain dare yesterday cough_____-kuncough)

ONE OF CEDARNPCC CAMPCRAFT TEAMS GOT INTO FINALS!
-wild applause congrats, you've done it, we know you can!
for team two (if you do find this blog), do cheer up (: in our eyes, you guys have already owned the no.1 position!

many people tell me my dp is nice and makes them crave for m&m's! haha!

IM DONE WITH G FREAKING P.
NOW TO GET STARTED ON P BLOODY I!

woo~ I can start rapping already.

I shall reward myself by watching gong chan before resuming my PI work.
must change blogskin soon. bahh the sunflower field looks lonely.
&& I got new specs! I look hmmm. ah well, you can laugh soon.

please recommend me a good handphone plan if you know of one.
one that is preferably generous with smses.

today I bought bubbletea, I am happy, havent drink in like weeks la.

okay, shall wait to see which guy will have to undergo plastic surgery to look perfect for diyanah. -shakes head

2008-03-29T09:24:00.003+08:00

this is what I plan to do today:

-finish GP essay

-understand chemical bonding (you can laugh with superiority at my lack of understanding of pi and sigma, bahh)

-print Great Expectations chapter 6-10, to be read at night

(if I haven't die by then)

-get rid of P freaking I

(the rough idea is floating in my head, let's see whether it makes sense when penned on paper)

-make new specs

(thou shalt not act pro no more) bahh. come to jc ah, cannot sit in the back of LTs already, otherwise must make new specs. shall not squint, bahhh.

let's be realistic and clear these first.

tomorrow is another new day!

here's something funny/cute.

have a nice saturday!

2008-03-28T22:31:00.008+08:00

replytags-
filzah: hello (: glad you love it! :D

this week's been pretty much hectic, I think.
pictures!

22/03: whirlwind gave our GIs their very own personalised boxes!

clockwise, starting from the black: jason, jia qian, ivie, jaclyn :D

the black box is damn gay right, LOL-

22/03: our GIs gave us :D letters! with pictures pasted on a err softboard (: so nice.

26/03: the 25ths of provisional instructors! dont we look fine! :D our very first photo as a batch (: from puny trainees to not-so-puny PIs! all our hardships and our sufferings will become our memories! (: yay. the same day that I injured my ankle from skidding on the slippery floor, causing me to limp the next day.

oh man, initiation ceremony left us stinky/saliva-ry and that absolute jazzy feeling of family, LOL- (duh, we've exchanged DNAs) yay, go 25th! I have faith in us (:

27/03: was this silly girl's birthday! yay! the guys got her that mushroom, haha which survived a death stunt: a fall from the treehouse, sustaining no visible injuries. got awfully chocolate cake (: I swear, s63 is getting fat at the rate we celebrate birthdays that we've kept a stash of plastic forks in kelly's locker. bahhh.

hey guys, I still miss youuuu! I can't wait for our birthday! does the picture look familiar? are you dead or alive huh? in my eyes, all of aries extraordinary.

crazy week. with crazy workload. my pile is piling like mad. I can only manage a 'thank god' that I've completed lit essay last week (misunderstanding of deadlines, hahh). damn, PI. ergh.

eh damnit, people have plenty of blackmail-worthy photos now, ergh. I shall bribe jiani or weiting soonsoonsoon to prettyplease delete those photos. unglam to the maxxx. ahhhh. ugly beyond disbelief! && that dare!

28/03: today's si han's birthday celebration! actual day's tomorrow. ahhh the photos are not accessible now. but we had a fun time giving him an extraordinarily disgusting cake made of erh that purple agar-agar thingy covered with mayo on all sides with pink icing and mint sweets, with 2 fishcakes. gross or gross. && he devoured it down while gamely posing seductively for the camera. whatttt. && then it was a proper polar cakes' chocolate cake for him && hungry us (more like steph and I)

ate && camwhored (argh the word!). dinner (plus camwhoring) with 25th, 18 of us @ the airport, viewing gallery. && truth or dare which was a complete entertainment. hey, 5-6 of us got initiated by ourselves. cough. silly antics and whatnots, good time.

this weekend will be exciting. y'know why? cause I'm gonna clear my mountainous pile of workk. exciting or not. steadyy lah. -froths at mouth and dies

okay I shall turn in asap after the sudden decline in my sleeping hours. from 1030 ish/11 to 1. crazy uh huh uh huh. TGIF!

2008-03-23T21:41:00.005+08:00

replytags-
diyanah: really! money-changer, HA HA HA. spas.

I learnt that my left foot is bigger than the right. alien. must be all the berhenti, check bangs, sedias and all that jazzy banging.

okay sarah says finals isnt on 29th. must be april.

will be going broke. soon.

2008-03-22T20:36:00.006+08:00

replytags-
jomelllll: yay yay yay, girl-friend! :D thanks for the encouragement -hugs hugs AND VEGGIE TALES IS GOOD. if you like to talk to tomatoes!

whoever that doesn't know of veggietales during their childhood is deprived. if a squash can make you smile!

eyy cc, alamakk must wake up.
eyy damnit, cc leh!
eh got sms.
-reads sms
huhhh why six ah? isn't it too early for filzah to be in school?
-glance at time
ohh can still sleep in, kaylah 5 more minutes. only 6.05
-lies back down
WHAT. SIX OH FIVE?! WHY OVERSLEPT ONE HOUR?!
-mutters curses, throws back covers, checks alarm
WHY DID YOU SET ALARM AT SIX, SMARTARSE.

road trip with dad to cck, messaging hoon all the way. just to check if we're stalking.tailing the right bus. damn funny. only such rubbish luck stuffs happen to me! on such an important event day some more!

so, CAMPCRAFT! -clapclapclap wild applause to both teams for doing themselves proud at the pitch that they had done today! (: am super super proud of them! :D yay yay yay! am veryvery happy, haha, so long as they did give their best, I'm honestly proud of them regardless of the results! (: hopefully, both teams can advance on to finals! I don't want trainings to end! nice one lah!

seriously, girls prelims' is tougher and more competitive than guys. the tension is more palpable lah.

then it was mad rush cabbing to vj with hoonthediscriminatedcailiyanyima'amrachel. that was long. oh yeah, to kill time we had a kill-time-lets-bet-on-taxi-fare game. in which I lost by $1.50 and won by hoonthediscriminated. bahhhh. I swear the uncle thinks we're mad, getting freaked out when the meter jumps and speculating as to who will be eliminated. wth! then, mad rush to parkway to print photos. failed mission! THEY CANT READ MY SILLY THUMBDRIVE. I am sad, I bet cyclone is sad too ): I felt bad. bahhh. thanks for the company, hoon.

back to vj, in time for reception which was a mad rush. sweating like crazy la! for once I felt uncomfy in vj uni. bahhh. get certs signed (I just realised when I got home that the DIs certs were unsigned :O ) ate/talked/laughed. emceed for ceremony with XY with the mindset kaykay, just whack! :D speechspeechvideoresults.

whirlwind went up to treehouse to open our letters (: skipskip.

ended at 3, went home at 7, steady or not, you tell me. good time spent with hoonthediscriminated. I applaud her for her atrocious imagination. she has collated more sins within these past 3 months than within the last 4 years that I've known her. hello ARSE, if you're reading this, my offer still stands. anything for me to do so that you will cease talking about coughcough. I bet you're gleefuly heh-heh-ing and cackling at the thought of tormenting me with unfounded accusations and nonexistent scandals. bahhh.

diyanah, thanks for the dvd! :D yayyayayayayay! :D

latest racist joke was so painful, it pierced my heart. I went :O at the sheer genius of the answer, sighh. I've reached the enlightenment of racism. I fear.

so that was my saturday today.

2008-03-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

replytags-
sarah: OH. see you tmr!
diyanah: ooh who is he? whoever he is, he's pretty hot. WITH WHITE HAIR PLS. HAHAHAHA. madness. yu is not cute. so seleng pls.

I can't remember when I watched my last hindi film. ho hum.

today, I did lit critical essay (WHICH APPARENTLY IS DUE TWO MONDAYS FROM NOW, NOT THIS MONDAY. bahhhhhhhh), print certs which look nice! -pats self yay to technology. see, a love-hate r/s with technology. yeahh man, we dont click always. settle GIs stuff. tomorrow will be perpetual rush hour till ceremony ends, bahh.

okay bye 1 minute till midnight. and this shouldnt be a saturday post. hoho.

2008-03-20T22:43:00.004+08:00

replytags-
diyanah && yoyo: kay thanks people, I didnt ask for free S.E promotions :P

long post ahead.

I actually intended this to be a photo entry BUT my silly hp refuse to connect with my computer. no fengshui probably.

yesterday
-ARTS DAY.
was :O or rather, pwoahed by the tacky-yet-cool magician (HAHAHAHA, tacky outfit pls!) but his tricks were really really cool lah. LOL, I still have the red card-turned blue!

spent an hour wishing I would melt into the ground during hiphop (YES, LAUGH) but okay not bad, I had fun. it was cool doing it as a class! (:

school invasion tour. I THOUGHT OF DIYANAH when I saw shan wee! HAHA. train of thought: omg, if only monyet was here! but okay, since she's over him alreadyyy.

met up with monyet afterwards! (: to watch koizora which is a rather nice, sweet movie, haha! anticlimax sound effects from some audiences. we had a rather unglam night, from unglam crossing of roads to unglam phototaking && such :D && to level 9 where time really passed by, ehs? phototaking (camwhore sounds freaking crude, HAHA) like a lot, with our respective boyfriends -coughs but yay, I enjoyed the time, thanks, monyet (:

today
-WHIRLWIND
meet up to do souvenirs for GIs, yay, we're done. && I'm finally done with the certs! another yayy. left with printing.

-CC TRAINING
yeaaahhh mannn. today was good (: I mean, there were screwups && messups but they did improved considerably. I really truly believe they can do it! (: && I don't care, this is definitely not the last time I'm coming back for training! which is why I didn't buy bubbletea today, something to look forward for, for the next training. haha, knowing we'll come back (if possible) and that they're just halfway through their journey. && it was goodtime, talking to hopap.

stepping into the npstore && all the nostalgia came rushing back to me like crazy. how yesterday it was that I sat down at the very table to file papers, update progress file. or lie around the floor slacking with fellow squadmates. or plan parades. the moneybox that's diyanah's which we used for trainingfund. ahma kicking our asses when we dirty the store, we're so lazy to not take off our shoes that we crawl in, with our legs up. imagine that. reading through the debrief file makes me grin silly. debrief files has always been a source of entertainment. every nco squad will realise that, once they took over and flip through. they'll probably think, 'what? my ncos wrote these silly stuffs down? that's what I thought last time, reading all the 'EH THEY WANT THEIR NCOS LAH'. 'because A,B, and I taught them!' 'ooh they're enthu because of us!' and all the rubbish scribbled at the sides. all the rifles line dup by numbers, the admin files sorted by squads. the green tents.

we had a good run, didnt we (:

-familytime
(: went to seoul for dinner with the siblings. it was good food plus good time (: so yay to us! I love the fact that though we all have different lives and lead hectic schedules (p6, j1, 3rd year poly, 3rd year uni) we see each other everyday and update each other on the bits && pieces of going-ons in our lives. and we have these kinda going-outs to just chillax and spent time together.

bahhh I got lost attempting to find settlers to stopby and meet s63. so I decided, bahhh forget it, mann. haha, jy made me happy today because she got me my caramelised biscuits! sayy yayyyy! yay to jy!

it's darn hard to find a nice blog layout that's non-navigational. bahhh, I hate navi links.

holidays are lie-in days. I'm a simple homebody, my roots are here. I shall attempt to get rid of homework tomorrow (shuts eye to the mountainous pile, ARGH).

kay, motivation: SATURDAY IS PRELIMS! HAHA.

eh damnit lah, I want to post up pictures! BAHHH.

oh yes. I LOVE ARIES (no hoon, DONT read too much into this, HAHAHA). but seriously, the fact that the ccteam seriously thought it was meant for ARIES was just damn funny, it didnt cross my mind. hahhhhhhh. madness. lauren is proviidng me with cheapo thrillzzz with her crazy imagination, ho hum. playing with a 5 year old can be downright refreshing. whoooshhh. oh and you know, when she talks online to me, I'm unclickable. I sound like a specimen right.

filzah, you ARE missed.

2008-03-18T19:13:00.002+08:00

if you have nokia phones (N73, 6300, 5700 Xpress, 5310 Xpress), do let me know whether they're nice. I need a successor on standby mode in case the current one (6288 that has braved && lived through many death-defying stunts) dies unexpectedly. BAHHHH. I hope my phone can last me for another year or so. the parents are bugging me to change, haha.

2008-03-16T09:22:00.003+08:00

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muu: YOU MOVED? ): ohno, that's sad, so much memories in your erinalite! haha (: AND WHY WASNIT I INFORMED ABOUT THE GATHERING AH!? wahseyyy. okaylah, maybe you thought I was at camp or somethg, I pulled out of air rifle. yeahh man. ah wells.
yoyo: thanks, man. you are like the #1 spammer on my blog, please. HAHA.
cher: DONT DIE. MUST BE EXCITED TO SEE MDM KEE TMR, HA HA HA. omg. im gonna die too!
jomel: yay! (: haha nice right. but STILL PREFER THE FIRST! (:

so yesterday, por && I DAREd. awesome, I say (:
congrats to lemuel&&qamarul for clinching 3rd in men's team, steph&&wilson, 3rd in mixed team! and of course, to huihong&&teckboon and boonyi&&jiani for completing the race with attitude! and then we got por&&I for being imba partners! HAHA. repeat: awesomeeee
short-term aim: reach checkpoint6 before 3.30pm to avoid elimination
long-term aim: complete the race
constant aim: have fun!
and we achieved all that && more!

it was a good day (: yup and it felt good to interact with people from other jcs, nice people. of course, there'll be some absolute ap people but whatever to them, ha ha. had fun doing the race :D when you have fun, the tough part dont seem that tough after all.

it was nice seeing marshals that you know. hey hoon, I was on the look-out for you!
won't talk about DARE because its mymymy memories, HAHA.

to end off, here's a quote from someone famous!
if you think you can, you can!
-josiah leong

HAHAHAHAHA. oh mannnn. what a joke. it's okay if you dont know who is he, HAHAHA.

am excited for 2203! a chance to see the odac-ers. hopefully, we can go to the prelims too.

2008-03-14T09:36:00.005+08:00

holidays are too, farr too short for anyone's good.
I miss my lovelies. 4I plus ARIES that is.

watched stepup 2 the streets ytd! :D hotter, slicker, are-they-crazy dance moves :D too eye-popping, haha. focuses too much on dance scenes (duh, it's a dance film).

I still prefer this! :D more focus on storyline && characters, hoho.

It's not what you've got, it's what you make of what you've got :D

I resolve to finish homework, using online movies as motivation. see you.

2008-03-13T08:44:00.000+08:00

And everybody heres, from somewhere else

You could make a million dollars, but you might lose yourself

And you can take the heat will your heart go cold

They say acting’s just pretending, even that gets old

2008-03-12T19:13:00.004+08:00

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jomel: WHERE GOT UNFAIR. WHO IS THE ONE INVOLVED IN SO MANY SCANDALS WITH MANYMANY PARTNERS AH.
yoyo: THANKSTHANKS but not yet an odac-er, haha.

highlight of the day!

so we spent the morning together, me attempting to plow through owen's 32 poems and the sister wasting time transferring her homework from rough to actual. it's hard to find those who feels comfortable sharing silences with. haha, I don't feel the need to talk every single time but you can tell if someone feels awkward with the silences in between. hard to believe how I used to find baohui's existence like damnnnn to infinity annoying && irritating like hell and she used to think (I hope) that I'm bitchy with an ap. HAHA. here's to ever-lasting && strong friendships && more material to blackmail you with! nice ketcup session, I say.

so I decided to not join ar after all. I don't feel right somehow. and no, please do not infer that I feel confident about odac (HAHA you wish!) because I'm not BUT heyhey, if nothing goes right, I'm sure God has plans for me elsewhere :D

we went to borders and had a fab time trawling through shelves && shelves of amazing books. I found a gem of a book! :D now I can totally swoon daily, HAHAHA. oh man... envy those who have a way and magic with words, stringing them all up into beautiful emotions. here's something I like.

Marriage is not
a house or even a tent

it is before that, and colder:

the edge of the forest, the edge
of the desert.
the unpainted stairs
at the back where we squat
outside, eating popcorn

the edge of the receding glacier

where painfully and with wonder
at having survived even
this far

we are learning to make fire

-margaret atwood, 'habitation'

and I found or rather, monk told me a gem of a website :D like, awesome~

to refresh the memory (which is unnecessary cause I watched it 45667658 times), watched stepup again. preparation to watch stepup2 tomorrow (yes I know the plots have no link, ssshhh). yeaahhhh mannnn.

2008-03-11T21:03:00.002+08:00

all our hardships && our sufferings,
will become our memories
so come on everybody,
join the odac family~

I'm back. in one piece :D minus voice. if you see me in school, please spare me your laughter, I sound like a chipmunk who just swallowed helium down.

highlight of today: ketching up with my family after 4 days of not seeing them, haha.

highlight of today: seeing kak nsQ! :D like, totally random please. haha (: it's a nice feeling to know that if I ever need a second opinion on issues, I can simply random-sms her for her views (:

come what may, olc2 was one hell of a damn good experience. whoever pulled out, START REGRETTING, HO HO HO.

22nd march= cedar's prelims! GO GIRLS!
22nd march= odac results! GO BUDDIES!

hi, I support the concept of monogamy :P

DARE briefing today got me quite excited :D can't wait for saturday, it'd be entertaining to do the race with fellow racist president a.k.a poryee, hoho. (note that he's more known for his racism rather than by his real name) let's do this man!

stepup2! CHANNING TATUM IS GONE EXCEPT FOR ONE CAMEO SCENE. male lead is the guy who played amanda's ex-bf in 'she's the man'. haha who cares, the danc emoves makes the guys hot.

okay bye. won't reveal olc details. mineminemine :D

2008-03-06T20:38:00.002+08:00

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yoyo: YOU LAH CAT2. YOU FAKER. and yes thanks, I'm unique.
madbear: MADBEAR IS INEZ RIGHT. yes I feel disturbed, YOU TERRORIST.
jomel: I DONT GO BACK ON MY WORDS! :D
K: ohman ohman, my classmates said the same thg too! about the feminine thing. OH NO. HAHA. KRYSTALLLLL.
ahmah: you're horrible yet nice. you ask people dont bully me BUT YOU BULLY ME YOURSELF. HMMMPHHH.

highlight of the day: seeing lost pumamas (SHAWN AND TRACER!) at bedok interchange by coincidence AND meeting up with baohui at tj!

oh, I felt like I was gonna get killed by walking in, in my vj uni. andddd I felt tempted to scream 'YO VJC!'. that's like committing suicide, man.

my march holidays schedule:
monday- just reached home. plans to sleep till tuesday comes.
tuesday- am free. plans to get rid of homework. meet filzah? meet baohui? both. separately.
wednesday to friday- air rifle camp
saturday- DARE. HA HA HA. COMMIT SUICIDE.
sunday- puma meet-up. KAYAK KAYAK.

if you think you can, you can!

went down for ar just now. training was veryyy personalised. yeah. felt so calm. I have ugly shots, hoho. but! it will improve! :D

OLC 2 TOMORROW! woohooo. 4 days will pass super fast! I hope. nothing to lose, everything to gain (: so just do your best and I'll earn the right to be proud of myself!

okay, BYE. DONT COME HERE, IT'D BE STAGNANT FOR THE NEXT 4 DAYS.

2008-03-04T21:25:00.002+08:00

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sushuen: you. are. jealous. my eyelashes are the real ones, yo! :D
yoyo: dont fake. you're catherine II. rightrightright.
filzah: YUP MARCH HOLS. then can pass your long-overdued present. tak nak mail, want to see your reaction. ANYWAY. erhhh yes you DO have the ug look :D meaning you look rugged? yeah. compliment what, haha.
jomel: HAHAHA. yahh super kukumalu okay! and yes, kiterunner! but aiyah. no time, no money ): I GET YOU NICE EYELASHES ON BIRTHDAY KAYKAY!
cherbear: WHAAATTT. how come I have a middle name?! I ask my parents, they also dont know! -faints faints
diyanah: call. 'hi can I sign up for take montegi's class? arigato gozaimas!'

I feel disturbed when my comments go beyond 6. it's just too many... I feel the need to reply quickly, instead of letting them accumulate. HAHA. oh man, am too weird.

2008-03-03T19:30:00.005+08:00

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filzah: -POINTS BELOW JUST FOR YOU. THANKS FOR THE PSYCHOTIC PICTURE OF MYSELF ON YOUR BLOG AH. HAHA. I dont think you'll fall on those cool heels (-insert some act pro explaination about low center of gravity) thank god I'm not taking physics at A's.
yoyo: EH YOU ARE JEALOUS RIGHT I KNOW. thanksthanks.

I know I can count on you to help me heal when I fall. we make a great team (:

hello filzah, you rock as much as how posed these pictures are, which is obviously posed! (check out your smirk in photo #1)therefore you obviously rock, woohoo! I miss you too. catch up with you during march holidays kay. you're booked! yaykaythanks. meanwhile, just do some finger-walking if you need to reach me :D -hugs

my unglam clad-in-awesome-psychotic-penguin shirt is available on the net for all to see. yay. filzah, I have a retarded-lazy m&m's shirt, show you one day.

I think the top compliment I tend to receive are 'hey, you have nice/quite nice complexion!' followed by 'I love your eyelashes, they're so long/ are you wearing a eyeliner?' HAHA! comment and tell me what's yours. that'd be fun to know!

I have a new classmate, her name is catherine. problem is, I don't know who is she.

today, I LOL-ed like crazy at mdm kee's mas selamat comment, pure rubbish. poor joel. and whoever she shoots to arrow on that day aka jomelcherylshrishsimei.

I like lit lessons y'know. hoho (:

tomorrow is such a longggg dayyyy -moansgroanswailsanddies HAH.

$$$ is needed like urgently urgently. quote diyanah-san's blog, 'okane, come to me!' BAH. am looking forward to march holidays.

STEP UP 2 THE STREETS IS COMING. COMING COMING COMING. I have yet to catch tons of movies (kiterunner, psily, jumper) BAH. moneymoneymoney, you're so funny, in a rich man's world. am not laughing. therefore, am not rich.

okay bye.

2008-03-02T18:49:00.005+08:00

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yoyo: thankthanks :D oh man, your tag is so anticlimax to my quote! HAHA. but! it does makes sense literally speaking (: haha, I'll remember that! :D and for 4thfeb post, you are lah please! if you're not pro, then I'm not a cat -.- ohhh dig deeper if you want, but nothing interesting, I assure you. other than my faily rants about how the world lacks fish for me to eat. yeahhh.
K: you're insane. we must ketchup (geddit?) soon, you tomato/apple! :D

this is the current IT shoes, designed by antonia berardi (some big-shot designer). I'll get one when 1. I have approx US$3600, 2. if they can prove that I can go to kota tinggi in these. in other words, never. haha! but I thought this was such a funky idea. heeless heels. how crazy can we get.

the kid has received like 465839405 presents. what to do, the first of his generation. keep showering the love. we wore silly party hats with masks, hung up colourful balloons around the house and eat ice cream cake of course. oh and blow that noisy thing that has like paper rolling out when it's blowed.

I will, I must transfer all images and vids into my com soon soon soon. ahhhh, procrastinator.

AND. I may be changing hp sooner than I would like to ): thanks to the recent death-defying stunt my hp just took, hoho. the next hp shall be a non-slider and a non-flipper and of course, nokia. the connecting people (:

my parents are my night and day.

NISBAH DOSA BAGI ORANG-ORANG YANG MENINGGALKAN SEMBAHYANG SETIPA WAKTU
SUBUH: Ia akan disiksa selama 60 tahun di dalam Neraka
ZUHUR: Dosanya seperti membunuh 1000 jiwa orang Islam.
ASAR: Dosanya seperti meruntuhkan kaabah
MAGHRIB: Dosanya seperrti ia berzina dengan ibunya (jika lelaki) atau berzina dengan bapanya (Jika perempuan)
ISYAK:Allah tidak redha ia hidup di bumi Allah ini dan digesa ia mencari bumi lain.

2008-02-29T19:56:00.002+08:00

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jomel: :D
K: HOW DID YOU GET HERE. you're missed la! even though I see you around school. haha!
cherbear && simei: HELLO BULLIES. bahhhhh. WHO IS CATHERINE.

one. the latest fun the class have right now is to call me catherine. yayyy.

two. joining DARE is seriously asking for a death sentence. but okay, I'm in to test my limits (: we were saying, let's not wear vj tees to gain anonymity.

three. campcraft prelims tomorrow! GO TEAMS! you can do this! sleep early tonight (10pm), drink lots of water, empty your mind AND ENTER THE PITCH WITH ABSOLUTE CONFIDENCE AND CHARGED-UP ENERGY!

four. margaret has somehow made me infamous in rj. I have yet to even step my foot in the school.

five. alot of work. LIKE TOTAL CRAZINESS. I think we can get our way with cherrr, HAHA, esp, extending deadlines.

six. ms chia says, the lesser you sleep, the shorter you'll be in years to come. that is not true for my case as I diligently collect my 7-8 hours of sleep each day, I can't stand beyond 1130pm, unless it's camps. or a damn good movie. or for a friend in need. not in that order lah, duh.

seven. tomorrow's the kid's birthday! HEE. life seems weird without him.

eight. monk has the uncanny ability to make me LOL continuously on my bad days. that's what brothers are forrrrr. general statement only , today was a good day.

nine. check out the march issue of reader's digest, the real-life story on 'friends interrupted'. if you have that one friend, you're rich. okay I'm rich.

ten. you can read my archives if you know the archives html. I will be honoured if you go to such great lengths to read about my mundane life, hahhh.

quote of the moment: you can't leave a footprint that lasts if you're walking on tiptoe. by someone I don't know who exists. marion c.blakey.

2008-02-28T21:04:00.002+08:00

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yoyo: yah see! I DONT LOOK LIKE A CATHERINE! AHAHAH OMG. this is retarded. yah thanks for the support, the girls keep disturbing me, I wont give them fortune then they know -grin
diyanah-san: OKAY SET YES IM ON FOR IT. yamapi! :D btw I havent register sey, too damn busy. ohmannnnn. but I WILL, SOON!
inez: HOW CAN YOU TICKLE ME TODAY AND CAUSED ME TO BE SO UNGLAM -slides and faints
ahmah: HELLO AHMAH! I know you're super entertained by me right. SIGHSIGHSIGH. esp over the catherine thing.
cherbear: yeah I get what you mean. -shudders, shivers, trembles, dies. HAHA. yah! no lah, actually I'm quite amused over the whole catherine thing. first time it happened to me!
jomel: yay! HAHA. (: awesome! we are strong people! so are you! (:
simei: YOU ALSO. ANOTHER ONE. poke fun at me! HAHAHA. WHY YOU POKE FUN AT ME! HURRY UP ANSWER! HAHAHA. dont forget to do airfare essay ah!

so the class is having fun calling me catherine. such a ridiculous silly thing has occured because, cherylahmah and a few others introduced me to weiting as 'oh, just call her cat!!' and blur weiting (HAHA) seriously thought that I'm cat because I look like one plus it's a coincidence that my name is ALSO catherine! -faints

my skirt has no friction today. seriously. I kept sliding all over the place. the hall floor. the silly classroom chairs. WHY. WHY.

when faced with setbacks, we often have two choices. to be willingly dragged down by ourselves and our fears or to simply willingly pull through with all the might and determination in the world, knowing that, you'll emerge as a stronger person on the other side. I'm choosing the latter option. because surrender is not my forte (: so yeah. after all the moments of craziness && pure confusion && whathaveyous, as someone says 'just whack, whack everywhere, really!', I'm going to do that (:

having the mindset to do so, I'm totally believing in myself that I can do this :D yay! I'll clench my fist and move along (: totally. will work towards eradicating all fears and self-doubts, hoho (:
you see. because, at the end of the day, knowing I've given my best shot, it is in itself something that I will be proud of and satisfied with.

everyone is allowed to have their moments of confusion && maybe, cold feet times. yeah. but it matters not what/how we were in the past, it matters in the here and now. it's all in the attitude, babyy. yes, I've made crazy silly mistakes but I'm going to ignore them and forge ahead, unrestricted by anything. it'd be tough, but then again, that's what determination's for. to keep you going when the going seems lousy (:

I was rather busy today (hence, the disappearing acts) err which I think arouse suspicion and concern among my classmates. thanks guys, but I was rather high today (because of the choice I've made), higher than I ever was yesterday or the recent days. yeahh so yall really did surprised me with the paranoia! (: but, am rather touched by the concern (:

well anyway, err, I dont think I can blog that often now, haha! these few weeks will be rather busy yeahh man (:

it's all in the mind! (: and the mind controls the body. woohooo.

okay kids. takecare of yourselves! have 7hours of sleep! drinks lots of water, eat veggies! haha so random.

2008-02-23T15:51:00.002+08:00

I went :O when I saw no. of comments. wasnt surprised when it's yoyo spamming.

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yoyo: HAHA. I AM SOOO GONNA SPRAY HIM WITH MAYO PLEASE! aiyahh please lah, you're a guy! -.- unofficial girl but scientifically a guy. you're a girl at heart, I know :P and yeahhh, young @ heart! :D oheight.sixthree, hey, I came up with that! -grin
diyanah: HAHA. imagine us randomly standing in front of THE red gates and swooning on the inside 'YAMAPI STOOD HERE', HAHAHA. && my rui ahhh, aiyahhhh. SIGHSIGH. dah lamer aku tak jenguk dier sey ): cant wait for hyd movie. WHITE TRENCH COAT!! -melts AND YES I WANT TO WATCH. HAHA. I bet I won't be focusing on the story line, I wonder whyyy. yr english dah hancur lah seleng.
cherbear: HELLO. YAH. omg, only he can do that annoying 'ssyyyyyiiii-kinnnn' sound! HAHA I feel silly in vj too, duh, what with people like hao yuan screaming answers in class!!! madness please!! YES. I should call him an asshole! but aiyahhh, I'm too nice already =X, HAHA. I still cant get over that scene okay! crazy uh huh uh huh.
simei: HAHA okay thanks, yeahhh why do we miss him so much when he's just at the other end of the freaking college -.- -shoots mayo

okay. replytags are too freaking long. I feel like I'm literally conversing verbally with these people, haha!

was excited to receive diyanah's phonecall (no, not because of you :P because of the news you gave :P) yay yay yay to sensei! HAHA. we are her number 1 fans -holds banner up high. lessons starting end of march, go brush up on your katakana (which :O I haven't ingat yet actually, HAHA, procrastinatorrr)

us four (ahma, me, hoon the discriminated plus sharr) went down to hta at an ungodly hour of 7.30 to catch the boys in action for their prelims! err.. but, it wasn't really action enough, if you get what I mean. haha. we were just rooting for area5 schools (because there wasnt a cedar and so we root out of area loyalty, hahhhh) so sad to see teams who are done with everything but at the last cursed minute, their manharness came down. and so, down goes their flag. if I were them, I'll jump down. maybe from the high elements section. haha.

and then you have some who probably came for participation points. cedarrr cedarrrr -clapclap.

but, oh, we sawwwww xiangjun (I think) and bertram! :D obs obs! cook cook! remember? yeahhh. haha, I can't believe xj actually asked around for our batch's cedar CIs -.- yeah huh, why DONT we have a CI from out batch, what a mystery :D

saw some random ma'ams/sirs. and a GI :O funkychicken boy was there. nat camp pap boy was there.

we were in brown.

I AM UNDECISIVE. SIGH- howhowhow. I want to whack myself. meow.

oh, this stray cat we call 'tomcat' recently passed away. old age I think. there are so many strays around my block but okaylah, easy to remember them && our names for them.

my new maths tutor is cool. ex-cedarian + ex-victorian. too enthu.

there are people who wants to leave vjc for other schools or are miserable at vjc. and then, there are those who are really dying to get their arse back in or are miserable at other jcs. sigh. why cant we all get what we want? bahhh. what a cutthroat world.

2008-02-22T19:25:00.003+08:00

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jomel: yay yay yay for us! eh chem cher was like -.- when she accidentally broke the jinx, haha! I swear, I think, most of our teachers think s63's super childish :D
yien/yoyo: ohyeah, I thought it was weird that you used 'yien'. too used to yr current name alr.

HELLO.

no 3rd period pe today! j1s classes in the hall went crazy with impromptu cheers. oh, and some of us (coughss63coughs) joined in when they did the ogl cheer! haha, whatever please, we are self-declared ogls :O catch the spirit that we create, today's the day we dominate! HAHA. spastard.
I'm lost in differentiation. why am I not surprised.

aries' blog is like, dead ):

oh, we have new classmates (:

zhanyi's absence leaves this freaking weird void in the class ): like, ehhh where's mayo? -searches cause, he's just always there, haha ): oh well, revenge on monday. okayokay?

I bet my mum has this secret mission to fatten me up and turn me into a beach ball. look at all the timtam biscuits/oreo/ khong guan lemon puffs that she bought! -howls

I miss diyanah-san. HAHA. ehh saru, you better be honoured lah, I don't do declarations often, haha! && ): we can't enter todai! HAHAHA. there goes our dream to enter todai! bahhh. but takpe, we can still go to japan, right right. HAHAAHA. I swear we're damn merepek.

eh! 3 months is gonna pass by super soon =\ have we really been in 2008 for 1.5 months already?

oh, wth, this entry has like 4 ): HAHA and I'm not even feeling sad.

2008-02-20T20:06:00.002+08:00

other than watching friends teetering on the knife edge of insanity in wait for their appeal results, people rushing back to/from vj for 02 or to their pae schools, nothing spectacular happened today.

yay to successful appeals! (: (:

2008-02-19T19:24:00.002+08:00

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syaz: oh yes, I have yet to find someone to give me supertight hugs (: see you.
jomel: OH -lightbulb flashes I GET IT, HAHAHAHA. okayokay, thanks! why would chilli make me sick!? no link lor.

I woke up to a flood of smses, all bearing not-so-good smses with the occasional 'staying?'.
oh, and the last came from anti-climax MOE of course.

vj was a depressing place to be in today (wahhhh, how rare -.- ).
masses wandering around with frowns on their foreheads or that dejected look on their faces. bahh. appeal list seems to run on forever =X
let's hope for the best!

mhmmm. inevitable that s63 will be separated la (either diff jcs, or arts fac) (: haha but, we'll be fine. quite a few leaving. I don't care, I'll scream 'HELLO!' in their faces if I see them.

went to the doc to change meds. the new ones now makes me tremble HAHA, spastic.

there's 02 tomorrow.

2008-02-18T20:49:00.003+08:00

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sarah: hello hello, ily, haaaaaaa. I'm the ONLY talking, living cat y'know what! -.- HAHA. so of course, with population: 1, I'd be the most awesomest cat! HAHA. ahahahah but thanks thanks anyway! :D -waves paw LONG TIME NO SEE LAH (you're not missed, dont worry kthanksbye :P)
jomel: WHAT PAST PRESENT FUTURE. I DONT UNDERSTAND, SPEAK ENGLISH PLS :P haha! thanks, girl (: ooh I'm not stressed lah. crazy (uh huh uh huh) to get stressed over this, haha!

I get over disappointments pretty fast, it's just a matter of when, I suppose. plus, I hate the feeling of being so down, HAHA. such a sinking feeling. sucks you to the ground. like those quicksand? usually my disappointment ends with 'aiyahhh okay, cant be bothered feeling this way. okay end.' done. hahhhh. weird like that. but efficient whatt. like switch y'know, -flips on, off. whateverrrr, never settle for less than the best. including, what I can give (:

so the emotion that's top on my list now is annoyance, hahhhh. quite pissed off, haha! okaylah just irritated, cause I've been sick since cny eve && I'm not getting better. I'M PRETTY MUCH READY TO CHOP OFF MY NOSE. running at too fast a speed for me already. plus I'm killing trees with my excessive nose-blowing. regular sound effect in s63, bahhh. I'm done with my meds, I collected the 2nd batch! oho!

I have no archives because, you shouldnt know too, too much (: I have no links because I'm too lazy to link people. I have comments instead of a tagboard because there'll always be lesser comments than tags.

I have nice, concerned friends (: thanks all you nice people. oh sadly all my interjc flowers died -.- I'm left with 2 gerberas (?!) and 1 errhh daisy (some flower la).

I ate 18 packets of chilli sauce with ljs combo one. awesome, I shall book the toilet in advance.

-waves paw wave so much, paw will drop off. basically fortune to everyone for posting tomorrow. may you get what you want. and if you dont, give yrself 5 mins to get over it, before you get yr ass in the sch's general office to complete appeal form. fight for what you want (:

yayyyy. my letters make people cry. I have heart-wrenching letter-writing skillzzz. you jealous? I have no regrets, after sending my first batch of letters, haha. no regrets to recipients whatsoever :D totally cool with whatever r/s I have with them right now, surviving or dying, drifiting or locked still (:

went back cedar after 2 weeks of absence, bahhh. felt bad but ohwells, hectic schedules && such. boys prelims this sat! NOTE: it's at hta not old pa! cedar -clapclapclap all the way! (: if any cedarnpcc campcraft team '08 members are reading this, KEEP GOING! dont give up! you guys are doing fine!

margaret wants to see angels soon. in other words, she wants to die. killed by me. -swipes claws

my mum is awesome, how the hell can she stand me, mannn. she makes the most ridiculous sacrifices for me.

today, I was branded racist. wasn't justified eh, that accusation. I just discriminate lauren. that's all (:

my silly class is mad. mass convo with plans to meet at 7.30 to burn fats and gain fats. go figure our activities. sighhh.

2008-02-17T21:28:00.003+08:00

if, for every self-criticism I flings at myself will cause a crack in my mirror, I am only left with broken pieces now.

if this is considered a war (internal), I can predict that it'll end with an impasse.

but you can only fight for so, so much.

2008-02-16T22:03:00.001+08:00

everything will work out in the end.

2008-02-10T07:36:00.000+08:00

dreamless sleeps for the past few months, till last night's nightmare that is. I dreamt that I failed first class because I forgot to dari kanan cepat jalan goh first then the normal cont (I know since when 1st class test got goh right but aiyahhh dreams what). anyway, I was freaking out and panicking like mad over the goh command, so much so that when I woke up, I was still feverishly muttering it to myself. && I couldnt remember it till 5 mins ago! hahhhh and thk was screaming at me. further hahhhhh. funnyfunny. we were at cedar courtyard (the oldschool one pls)

anyway I'm gonna be away for awhile. comment if you want (HAHA entertainment la tu) but don't watch this space, it'd be like this for awhile.

2008-02-09T11:08:00.000+08:00

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indescribable pose poster-gal: whoa okay I don't mind, it'd be a joy to see us frequently together.
diyanah: perasannnn, that makes you OLDER than THEM! stop being a paedophile diyanah-san! ISHISH.

I'm finally reading lauren's stephanie meyer's twilight after it gathering dust on the table for so long. I feel like laughing when reading it (I don't think this is the reaction stephanie wants sey) but yeah. and I'm not falling for edward cullen. haha!

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muu: YAH PRECISELY. EW. WHY HIM HAHHH. blind or what. ah well well well. I just started reading. I still remember the 4I girls going mad over it (krystal's gang ah). haha!

I'm done with twilight. and why is cedric diggory playing cullen?! HAHAHA, wth, he better do justice to that character, man.

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